Alone

From a distance you see me

Smiling and perfectly fine

Laughing out loud

Allowing my inner self to shine

 

But look closer and pay attention

You’ll see my best

Smile that’s hiding

The suffocating pain in my chest

 

From a glance

My eyes reveal nothing

But take more than a glance

And deep inside you’ll see it’s raining

 

Sorrow so deep

A knife through the heart

Wouldn’t mount up to the pain

It would just be a start

 

Ever since I was young

To cry was weakness

And weakness always

Made me less

 

No fear allowed

Had to be strong

Had to be independent

To lean would be wrong

 

Never understanding

Life the way it was

To hide my emotions

It was part of the laws

 

I reached out for help

To learn more pain

I reached out for help

To have my hopes slain

 

So now I smile

Despite the grief

That takes and swallows me

My gloom never brief

 

I no longer cry

I no longer reach out

I am now always

In unknowing doubt

 

My screams are silent

My misery unknown

Everything I’ve been taught

Has led to a life all alone

Reviews

[A.A.Romanczuk]

Heart-breaking...beautiful...the need to be heard...so many of us go through life..silent...never voicing the pain...the depression...You speak for many...many..people...it is wonderful to see that You have turned Your pain into something beautiful..into something that can help another in Your situation feel less alone...
A striking poem..

[Emotionally Blank yet F..]

To say I love this would be a huge understatement. You've captured all of my personal beliefs (crying=weak, leaning= wrong, hiding emotions is law) and my personality (not sure thats the word i want)(1st, 2nd, and 3rd stanza's mainly) in a beautiful way. I was able to relate to this poem immediatly because it IS me. You did amazing! :)
Favorite lines are: "My screams are silent My misery unknown Everything I've been taught Has led to a life all alone"

[nono]

Very beautiful nice job! Screaming to be heard ho many times someone has written something like this.....countless i guess. You did a fantastic job!

[Pookie]

I agree with VampireChick. You showed strong emotion with your words. The pain felt real and I liked it. It was really good.

[Dr.Who.LOVER]

You showed amazing power and emotion through your words. I was moved and felt the pain through your words. I was simply in awe of this piece for it was completely amazing
-VampireChick

[R E Tree]

This poem has emotions so true and strong. You words are heard and it makes the reader care so much. The poem is very touching as well especially to people that can relate to this. It's best to learn from what you did through your depression and learn from it wisely. Just hope one day you find that happiness just like I do when I feel down. I cry myself to sleep sometimes hoping to wake out of this nightmare of a life. But not everything is just a dream and it can be hard to live with.

[Coyote Poetry]

Sometime we fall to the worst point then we have only one way to go. Better we hope. A very sad poem. I could feel the disappointment and desire to think and be alone. A excellent poem.
Coyote