An Ode to Plain Pasta, and to YouA Poem by zzzingbirdWe always begin with a clean slate. A limpid looking glass, almost too heavy to hold. A metallic prison holding only the fear that I will let it spill, And leave it empty again So I set it down, for now. I can’t bear to leave that mirror in its unsullied state So I surrender to some awful compulsion-- Hunger, maybe-- And I add what needs to be added And I do what must be done And I say nothing But suddenly I’m gazing at you instead of at myself I remember reading, a long time ago, in some horrible book that I’ve forgotten now The slower you boil a frog, the less likely it is to realise it may be in danger The quicker I show you how I feel, the more likely you are to realise, and the more danger I am in. So I start with medium heat. I’ve never been one to stir the pot. For a moment or two, I let myself admire it, Admire you. Not from afar, as I’m accustomed to, but from right there Seething beneath the surface, ripples and muttering blending together. But this, too, is temporary. So I disturb this symphony of air and water and foam, and I stir. I can’t breathe when I’m near you But today I’ll pretend that it’s just because I’m Mummified in the strips of clear steam you emanate-- And I wish I could give in, I wish I could just let myself burn alive, my love, But I can’t right now, not yet So I stay, here with you, and I wait. An age passes, And I wonder what I’ve earned by suffering And I tamp down the itch that tells me I should have started sooner And I know that One Day Soon I will have to rouse myself from my reverie and expose those submerged feelings To the cool air Because nothing can stay beneath the bubbling surface forever. But I wait. And I wait because I know that This, at least, will turn out as I want it to. Because I followed the instructions on the box. Because I can be certain that I have all the right ingredients, few as they may be. Because for once I know that I’ve done everything right. And So I Wait. So I can draw you out from your leaden shell And feel the clinging spurs of my metallic bones Entwined in the al dente strands of your hair, you angel. And my stomach settles, And I breathe. And when next I see you-- I won’t tell you about the butterflies in my stomach. © 2019 zzzingbird |
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