little peice of me

It's 3:34 Am and I've woken up in the middle of the night

agin.I tryd going back to sleep but like always no 

luck, My mind was agin rushing through thoughts

that are nonsense to think about in the middle of the 

night.Or day or morning whatever.Im laying

down in my liveing room on my couch due to my room

being cold and unwelcomeing at the moment. 

I woke up like I always do.My eyes just open like

they forgot when did I even fall asleep?.

I lookd at my tablet for the time and relized why always

do I wake up around this time?.

My mother roukd me once that this was the time the

ghost and demon's come out.She said the time stops

around midnight and 3 so they come out and walk around. 

Strange thing is I'm not interested in looking around.

As I checkd my tablet for the time I relized someone

had kikd me. A new texing app that you can tex only

friends. I lookd at the tex and it was my beloved ex

which surprised me because we dont even talk.

The tex read.

"Are u up" he had sent that tex hours ago.

Gee he had no idea.

He knew I was always up at night but its 3 now and I bet

hes asleep. I lookd at my other texs

of my friends they didnt tex me I just wanted to reread

the last conversation we had and I noticed my beloved

bf just read my tex and didn't respond. 

I hate it when he dose that. To top it off worse

he had changed his profile pic to a black background. 

Which it used to be a picture I drew of us.

I wounder if he knows I notice he loses intrest in me.

I ask all my friends if im boring or do I talk to much of

me and they laugh and say.

"You're a damn riot sheri you bring the fun, and you dont

even talk about yourself you talk about how you

want to help people and make the world a better place."

I'm not trying to sound like a sait that's what they say.

Its werid sometimes I think maybe I should just find

someone new now befor I get to attached.

Deep down I know im not happy with him and he dose

and says certain things that hurt me but..

when he dose make me happy and feel wanted and full 

of life I feel like gee maybe im just not used to his ways.

or idk I can't think properly.

I just wish he would see what he dose to me.

ya know when you buy a new pair of shoes and you 

absolutely love them. But like you never wear them

because you dont want to ruin them or you just

Can't figure out what to wear with them.

And then when you do wear them you get used to them

and their not as nice when you first saw them.

well sometimes I think im a new pair of convers

because I absolutely love those shoes.okay back to

the point I'm a new pair of convers and he looks

at me with a warm sparkle of admiration but then puts

me back in the cool box they come in and I just wait

there until I'm convenient for him. And when he dose

wear me he doseint show me off or look at me twice. 

But when other people see how nice I look they

Say wow so nice and beautiful. But like he doseint see 

what they see or like I see it that way.

I'm not shure where im going with this maybe I 

just feel neglected like always.

Man dude I better try to go to sleep agin its 4 

I just thought I'd write one of these because 

I was bored and restless. Moto for the night*

"We all want the love we can't have"

Author's Note

Im tired , this is real its not something
I made up but whatever it's late lol night.

Reviews

[Red]

I think a person is defined by their thoughts... n d way "U" think about everything is beautiful.....
we all have bad times and d way u described your dilemma's and sorrow in this 'midnight message' just reflects how beautiful you are from inside...
it's wonderful....

[sheriH 2]

Thank you very much , I appreciate your words greatly. Im pleased that at least someone out their understands , thank you for ur comment im glad you liked it ^_^
-sheri