my dear, the pain you have caused

my heart faintly beats

promises made that were never meant to keep

lies build, and pain supports

hurting me a common sport

hope grows faint and slowly drifts

its like im stuck within a rift

waves tumble over me

crushing who i use to be

im left an emotionless zombie

dead to the world

so why shall not be dead to thee?

the thought of failure dillutes your mind

but your words are bitter never kind

pain has swallowed me whole

it shows from my eyes to my soul

though i may not be dead figuratively i am

each word another dagger

upon each tear i stagger

hope as gone, just as i am

i have no support nor a hand

confusion dillutes you

for a conversation weve never had

where you sit and listen

instead of stab and stab

blood seeps through my never ending wounds

im like soldier caught in your never ending doom

i fight and fight

but when the shot rings out

it hits me and i fall to the ground

hope is lost as am i

tears alone i shall not cry

numb is what i have become

emotions masked

and will undone

i do not live a life i live in fear

of hurting myself

for you have never looked in the mirror

and seen the pain you cause my dear