clarity

I always felt love was something that overwhelms you.

Rainbows and sunshine, flipped stomachs and butterflies. 

but boy was I wrong, or was I?

I felt as though it trapped me, consumed me whole for years.

In fact, it was just a trap. 

with a sly smile and melodic laugh, I was entranced

his eyes so blue, they drowned me

they were deep, but he was shallow

a puddle disguised as an ocean

but my depth perception is off you see?

I didn't wade in, I jumped 

and in that moment water turned into quicksand 

I spiraled downward like a tornado flipped and ran in reverse

and when I crashed I crashed hard and I didn't see it coming 

but hindsight is 20/20 and while I don't want to be mean, my realizations are very real

while smiles shine, its not always bright, its not always real

while kisses leave you breathless, maybe its a sign your heart should just stop

love should fill you with life, not drain you 

just because the sun beats down that doesn't mean there aren't shadows

shadows narrow in and they overcome the sunlight 

if you don't sing the song the sunshine stops 

darkness consumes you and the quicksand pulls you further

I know at this point, I seem jaded 

but when you see sunshine after rain, you realize the rain was really a storm 

the rainbow hits you harder than you could ever imagine 

and when you smile and it's real, your soul glows 

rain clouds come again

the thunder strikes and you feel the hairs on your arms rise 

why does the darkness overrun the light 

the power it holds,

the shadows unknown

Author's Note

I'm still working on this. open to suggestions.