Out with the Stars

Junior year, my teacher gave us a journal prompts with about five minutes to complete it. One of them really stuck with me; “What would you say to the world as it was waking up”.

I was out beyond our solar system, floating alone with nothing but the stars as company. It was nice, because it seemed as though I had billions and billions of friends who came with me wherever I floated in the entirety of the universe.They seemed so close I could touch them...but in reality they were light years away. It was for the best though, because if they would get closer they would burn me up, consume me. I kept floating along, towards stars that seemed familiar...maybe they were the ones I had seen when I would go to sleep on my trampoline at night, and at midnight when the world was quiet and dark when you would see the stars by the millions be brighter than the brightest moon, and much more tranquil than the sun. 

I came upon a woman asleep. A woman with deep blue skin, darker than the deepest blue of the oceans on a clear sunny day. Her hair was long, just above her ankles and the purest white ever seen. She was asleep, her hands resting underneath her head and her knees tucked up ever so slightly toward her chest. It was a perfectly peaceful scene, until I looked closer. Her eyebrows were knit together tight, her eyes forced closed, her head shaking side to side ever so slightly, and every so often a grunt would escape her lips. Pain. Suffering. A single tear hung on her left..... no, her right eye. Grey, cloudy, dark, and mysterious. I floated there, wishing I could help her. Every once in awhile she would turn over, and over again. I thought she would wake up, and I would become scared and excited, but she didn't. It wasn't until a month later that she would open her eyes. 

She began to make more noise than ever, tossing and turning as to shake off all her unknown woes, and I moved closer. I tucked her hair behind her hair and I whispered into her ear "I will love you, I will always love you, and if really need help, or just a hug....I am here for you. Forever." I backed away, and she fully woke up, her eye wide open and alert. I was stunned by the deep green that seems to never end, but then I realized....she didn't hear me. She had no idea who I was, and she was going to leave. She wiped away her single tear and turned, refusing to show how broken she was even though I knew. She floated off, and I hesitated. I watched her go and began to cry myself. I didn't know her, not a name, and had only just seen her eyes... but I felt a connection. Something as deep and true and the fates written out by gods and storytellers. She would never feel it.... she would never know as just left.

I hesitated, and then I was left with the darkness and the stars. But now the stars were much farther away, much more dim, and I wish they would come closer. Come closer and burn me up.

Consume me.