Lost Fool

Lost Fool

A Poem by Ziad Alzarka
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Some scars just don't ever heal

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I moved on
I was scared that I would
They say that change is never bad
They say you can't hold on forever

I don't know where I'm going
I don't know if I'm enough

I hate feelings
They make me weak
I hate being weak
I hate wallowing in self-pity
I don't want to be vulnerable ever again

I want something real
I want something I can touch
A shoulder I can cry on
Except that I don't want to cry
Crying makes me feel weak

I want someone to flip my whole world upside down
The bad, but feels so good kind of love
I used to be scared of a lot of things
But I am scared of nothing now

It feels like we haven't talked in years
It feels like I don't even know you
You're a stranger to me now

No one is waiting for me to be okay
No one looks at sad people and just wants to hug them
Because not a lot of people are like me
I am not special, I'm just different
One more thing that I have to accept

I want to be left alone
But I don't want to feel like I'm missing out
I want some peace of mind
But I don't want to live an ordinary life
I want to stop writing
But I love the attention
I don't know what I want

I hate my mood swings
I hate how impatient I am
I hate how lost I am
I hate how much I miss someone who doesn't know the first thing about me
I hate how I think that we have a chance
I hate that I ever saw you
You know yourself, lost one

My love for you is unjustifiable
My love for you is pure
I hope you can see, but then what?
I'll screw it up again
I can't get you out of my head no matter how hard I try

Just a little bit of your heart
Let me be a friend
Let me be anything to you
I hate it, but damn!
Here you go making me weak again
I am such a fool

© 2019 Ziad Alzarka


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Added on December 15, 2018
Last Updated on January 3, 2019

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Ziad Alzarka
Ziad Alzarka

Al-Byhira, Damanhur, Egypt



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thank u thank u

A Poem by Ziad Alzarka