Lost FoolA Poem by Ziad AlzarkaSome scars just don't ever healI moved on I was scared that I would They say that change is never bad They say you can't hold on forever I don't know where I'm going I don't know if I'm enough I hate feelings They make me weak I hate being weak I hate wallowing in self-pity I don't want to be vulnerable ever again I want something real I want something I can touch A shoulder I can cry on Except that I don't want to cry Crying makes me feel weak I want someone to flip my whole world upside down The bad, but feels so good kind of love I used to be scared of a lot of things But I am scared of nothing now It feels like we haven't talked in years It feels like I don't even know you You're a stranger to me now No one is waiting for me to be okay No one looks at sad people and just wants to hug them Because not a lot of people are like me I am not special, I'm just different One more thing that I have to accept I want to be left alone But I don't want to feel like I'm missing out I want some peace of mind But I don't want to live an ordinary life I want to stop writing But I love the attention I don't know what I want I hate my mood swings I hate how impatient I am I hate how lost I am I hate how much I miss someone who doesn't know the first thing about me I hate how I think that we have a chance I hate that I ever saw you You know yourself, lost one My love for you is unjustifiable My love for you is pure I hope you can see, but then what? I'll screw it up again I can't get you out of my head no matter how hard I try Just a little bit of your heart Let me be a friend Let me be anything to you I hate it, but damn! Here you go making me weak again I am such a fool
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Added on December 15, 2018 Last Updated on January 3, 2019 Author
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