for now, maybe

just maybe

i think right now

i want her :(

 

i want her here

i want her near

 

i want to have this moment

for now, maybe forever

 

and if this feeling

is fleeting

or a lie

or whatever

 

i like to think

there are little truths

strewn in the crevices

of our every interaction

 

truths in her small kisses

in every "be careful"

"what's wrong?"

 

truth in the care

the affection

 

truths in the connection

this feeling

so real

and here

 

how could you deny it?

 

 

and if there are lies

strewn in every surface

is it too much to ask

if i could be happy in them

maybe for now

maybe until we can

speak our truths out loud

 

spell out the meaning

behind our fancy words

our little secrets in holding

 

and let come what may

 

 

 

i'm not ready to brave the storm

to raise the stakes

but if it makes us

or breaks us

 

can i have today?

can i have this moment?

can we be each other's

for now, maybe forever?