Homes

do you also build homes out of people?

Don't build homes out of people

is what they say

 

But when your home

is but a house full of people

you barely know 

and barely know you

 

You build one anyway

 

The best kind of homes

are the homes

you can come back to

 

They're memories and mementos

sewn together by warmth

and trust

and the storms you had to battle

together

and on your own

 

They're the fuzzy feeling in your chest

when you meet again

after so long

and it seems nothing has changed

 

Or everything has

but it doesn't matter

you're you

they're them

 

You're the same and different 

and these are just new words

in the same language you breathe

albeit through different tools

 

The worst homes

are the ones

you don't wanna leave

 

Because they're the ones that do

or they're the ones

you hold on too tightly,

they shatter in your own fingertips

 

They're the ones

with the touch you can't get enough of

the fingers that make you feel

like you're puzzle pieces made to fit

 

The embrace

no one could come close to

 

You spend your entire life 

getting people to warm up to you,

hoping you can collect

different parts

of different homes 

to make your own

 

To cover up the holes

dug up by the establishment 

you wake up in

From bodies you can't shake

 

And they're just a person

Not that much bigger than you

But in their embrace

All the emptiness gets replaced

By warmth

And affection 

And acceptance

 

Until no one can compare

Until theirs is the only embrace

That can make you feel whole

 

Until they cease being a home

But a medicine

To a life-long disease �"

Cannot be cured, only managed

And they're the only relief

 

You hold on too tightly and

They shatter in your own fingertips

 

Don't build homes out of people

Is what they say

 

But what if

It's not out of them

But with them?

 

Seek what you need

And take only what they can give

In a cycle of understanding, care

And compromise

 

Fill your home 

With material that will not crumble 

That you cannot shatter

 

Then you'll know

That your best home

Is the one you made 

And continue to cultivate 

Growing

Breaking

But coming back together

Stronger