Bursting Bubbles

for all the toxic relationships there

We're funny, you and I 

 

There must have been a point in our life 

Where being together made sense 

When you were my comrade 

And I was your ally 

 

A time when we weren't at each other's necks 

Bickering 

Disagreeing 

Fighting  

But no longer making sense, 

All reasoning forgotten amidst the chaos 

 

Surely, there was a time 

When your presence didn't suffocate me 

Didn't ring all my alarm bells 

Didn't make me want to flee the room 

At the sound of your voice 

 

Crazy, how it seems there was a time 

I thought we could make it work 

We've grown into adult versions of our young minds 

Seen different worlds we could both learn from 

 

Ironic, how this space  

Turned sour into bitter 

Until it bubbled into acid 

Burning the back of my throat 

An unwelcome wildfire catching onto thin air 

 

We're adults, I tell myself 

I stay in my seat longer than i can take 

I talk to you longer than the alarms allow 

I listen and try and try and try 

Over and over 

Letting you in 

Believing in your best intentions 

 

But even at your best, 

You drive me nuts 

And never in a good way 

Never in the way people say this when they're awfully fond 

Never not in the way that makes me wanna peel my skin off, 

Burn my skin with liquid death traps 

 

We keep trying to make this work 

But your comfort is my discomfort 

The practices i have built for myself over the years 

Are the practices you take down with yours  

There is no way in hell this combination will work 

 

But we keep on trying 

Keep on breaking 

 

We're funny, you and I