Sorrow

I'm sorry.

Sorrow

        I'm deeply sorry for the trouble I've caused. I know you've waited for me and I have selfishly not shown up. I've left you waiting and I know that is wrong. I'm consumed by my pool of sadness, filled with my tears. I know I will not drown in my pool, as I float and look up into another day.

 

        I know that all humans make mistakes and I know that I myself have stumbled through the halls of life as everyone else had at some point. I know that what I say may have no meaning to you. After all, action speaks louder than words and emotion that are contained in another person. I cannot send you my thoughts, my feelings or even my desires. I am alone in this department.

 

        I come to beseech you for your forgiveness. I know that we are all busy and my schedule is of no exception. I know I've been on and off like a power switch but this is due to my changing world. Everyone's world changes bit by bit but as a college student, freshman mind you, I have even more steps I need to pass. Don't forget that I must learn to be self-sufficient and that in itself is a long green mile. While I may have mastery over time, I cannot control each and every event that may come at its leisure.

 

        Surely you may have some inkling of what I do but alas you know only of a small facade. While I may weep alone, the only one that truly knows myself, I must reach out and learn of a world beyond myself. There is a chance I might fall again, but all I ask for is hope. I've proven myself in the past, and this is just a hardship I'm dealing with. I'm not habitually lazy or even late during the summer. It is this change that strikes me down to size .In this way, I ask for forgiveness to atone my sinful action of being late. Is that such a hard thing to ask?

 

Magen Kumquat.