My eyes bleed Inside death is overtaking me And I'm scared, really afraid I cannot yet depart to my grave My heart beats With an urgency that leads to sleep And I cry from pain of pondering On my possible demise And I find myself surprised That with all the cries for death In the end all that is left Is fear... Fear of falling to sheol Fear of the ultimate seal And with every struggle of breath That is forced from my chest My sadness is great, for I fear... That soon I will perish
First off, let me just say hearing your voice recite your poem really drug me in as a reader, and it helped me appreciate the rhythm of your writing. You really spoke the volumes of what it's like to suffer from a broken heart. Your line "I cannot yet depart to my grave" instantly made me think of Frosts, Stopping by the Woods on a Snowy Evening. Where in that last verse he alludes to wanting death to come, but knowing it wasn't yet his time. Only you take it to a totally different place, and apply it to a totally different context. You make that feeling so easy to relate to, and I love you reference to Sheol, the Hebrew hell/abyss. That’s so fitting, that allusion to that unfathomable madness of depression. Excellent write!