Generic Angst

all that you've "just done before"

and God are you tired
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the slew of endless, unoriginal thoughts. 
not getting any better, getting worse? anywhere at all.

predictable dirty dishes just
f*****g look at me from the sink
chicken-scratch-to-do list that i'm always
getting around to.

i retreat to blankets, oversized hoodies,
trying to feel small. eyes tighter
as if that might help any of this along
but i can't force sleep anymore than i could cheat death
failure.

want is to desire as need is to exist
when really all i want is
simple.