Like a note

I wish i could wrap
myself up like a note in 
a bottle and throw myself 
out to sea; hoping someone
one day will find me.

I would ask for silver and for 
where all the love from humans
has gone. Because the last time i 
truly loved another soul, i got my 
heart torn to shreds.

So then i would ask for gold,
something more pure because
in the end that's what i was 
searching for. I sailed seas of 
pain and swallowed salty waters
with stinging eyes to find a love
that i needed to remain.

And yet it was you and i hated
myself from the bottom of my 
heart, for allowing you back into 
my life. I'm a used doll that 
enjoys your temporary company
because i somehow convince
myself every time that this time,
it is real.

That this time i won't need to 
contain myself to an empty
whisky bottle. That this time you
won't leave me on the shore and
that this time, you will love me.

Salt looks like sugar and you say
words of sweetness but
just like the water, they're salty.
Deception at it's finest. 
I should've listened to that voice
telling me not to go back to 
the heart breaker but when the
heart breaker looks like the one
who will sew your heart back
together, how can i resist?

I wish there was a button where i 

could erase you or i from existence.
And out of you or i, i mean you 
because how many hearts
have you torn? You say you're
unlovable but that's a lie, that's a 
lie, that's a lie.

I'm a fool.
I'm a fool.
I'm a fool.
How dare i let myself
hurt myself over 
a coward again. 

I wish i could wrap myself up,
throw myself into the sea, 
and never hear from you again.

But i will.

              Because i never learn.
(One day i may)

Author's Note

Hello everyone!!! So sorry i've not been posting for a while, i'm very busy with a lot of things. Anyhoooo i hope you enjoy this spoken poem i wrote. It's possible one of my favourites. Hope you are all well! :) - Melody x (also it's nearly my one year anni on writers cafe!)

Reviews

[Najam Us Saher]

I could feel your words, such powerful is the description. You express your emotions really well.

[mou]

we put a note in the bottle and throw it into a sea, we are searching for a day when dreams come to realty..again we make ourselves so blind that we leave our "wish" in a cage and it's fortune will depend on the flow of water only..a poignant piece..much to learn from your poem..love everything here specially "But I will"..oh so true true true..I just love it
mou.

[wordman]

love hate relationship,beauty will always be found