Onward

I remember being inside,
where people rush to hide.
Away from your unfathomable stare,
god how it made me feel so bare.

I remember sitting in a corner,
Away from everyone and all their horrors.
Setting up my own walls,
As if to guard me from my own downfall.

I remember talking to a stranger,
Thinking I knew him, I didn't reconsider.
But then things came then burst a thunder,
"Ungrateful kid, why to a teacher?"

I remember feeling... nothing.
After all those times I felt everything,
Tried to convey what made me suffer,
Ended how? Got torn asunder.

Here I am standing on a ledge,
Feeling nothing, eager for the edge,
Right then and there, one foot forward.
"Deep breaths, honey, go on... go onward."