I wake during the long muggy night
Realizing I am in a strange and void space,
I feel an icy chill and suddenly very much alone.
I'm in a new city that I experience daily with vigor,
Spending countless hours inside its invisible walls
Its' mood holds an unyielding fascination
That captures my wild untamed soul.
Sometimes I wonder why I am not home where
I spent all of my younger years,
Why did I leave behind friends and family?
Was it to find adventure and excitement?
These and other questions
Form over and over in my mind.
The lonely thoughts that enter my head
Keep restless sleep from finding my door
For not even the new friends I've found
Have been able to replace what haunts me.
The excitement that has takes over my spirit
Still cannot erase the ones I left behind.
But answers I seek do not come
So I accept the fact that I have created
A new home and a home it must be
Until I find whatever it was that drove me.
Dawn approaches and the skyline is in sight
A new day to bring new adventures that I seek
Still desperation draws tighter around me.
Without warning depression rears its' ugly head.
Surely it will pass, how long? an hour, or
Maybe If I'm lucky something small will occur
To bring me good thoughts for a short spell and
Life will go on