Delusion

Still raw. Ramblings of a raging mind...

Sometimes, falling in love with the feeling of being in love is what happens rather than actually being in love. 

Sometimes, the feeling of being in love is what feels good rather than the actual feeling of love. 

Or maybe it's just a warped up, garbled version of truth, love and lies... 

Maybe we're so used to living in a delusion that even reality seems bogus to our fake - accustomed eyes. 

Maybe it's all -- an illusion.

Reviews

[Perdition]

Maybe. Short and sweet and now I have to go rethink my entire life so thanks. Just joking as the harsh offering in this one made me imagine you walking down early morning streets that held flickering and vacant lights while you stood there answering and wondering where it all ends. I "loved" this in other words..or was it..lol. Wonderfully done. Thanks.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I still wonder where it all ends, that's kinda my greatest curiosity in life.
I like your humour here and glad it made you think. Thank you so much for reading and appreciating, P. :)

[LazerRays]

Maybe you're right. But if you were- wouldn't that be an illusion too? Would you actually be right? Or technically wrong?

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Everything's an illusion, I guess, until you start believing in it. .. technically ;) I don't really want to be proven wrong here but neither do I want to be called right. Idk, I'm confused in general when it comes to s**t like love. lol.
Thanks so much for reading, Sarah.

[LazerRays]

Welcome to the paradox of life.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

hah I'm already bored

[LazerRays]

Bored of all the fun surprises? I suppose you want a normal life, huh?

[Dr. YumnaKay]

what do you even know about fun surprises? ;) not normal really lol

[LazerRays]

Maybe not fun but I know surprises. Life loves to play games with me. See how much pressure she can take before she explodes. What a nice surprise! She's cracking! Just when I'm thinking my life has calmed down I get jumpscared by a new problem. Such surprises!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

But do you stop and think enough about that previous problem which somehow and eventually resolves? That's the circle of life, I guess. But there's a saying that goes around here that we aren't really given more than we can chew. Js. I'm not an optimist, more like a realist. I think tackling problems is what makes you stronger. Do you think life is the name of living a sheltered life?

[Dr. YumnaKay]

eeh I spoke too much but there you go, what I was going on in my mind :x

[LazerRays]

Haha XD that's not even the side I was arguing for hahahaha! Don't tell me things I already don't know...

[Dr. YumnaKay]

That's what you get for asking me to blurt out my thoughts. lol sorry :S
Am I supposed to tell you the things you already know? What's the fun in it? :/

[LazerRays]

No I wrote the sentence wrong haha. It's supposed to be tell me something I don't know or don't tell me what I already know. I kinda got sidetracked with my game and wrote them combined lol

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I that's a polite way of saying f**k off. lol

[Dr. YumnaKay]

*suppose ;x

[LazerRays]

No it's a polite way of saying "what you are saying is dumb- please be smart or shut up" lol ;)
read moreNo it's a polite way of saying "what you are saying is dumb- please be smart or shut up" lol ;)

but I'm joking with you- I don't mean it

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Ah I know this tactic - say all you want and wrap it up nicely by saying you didn't mean it. haharead moreAh I know this tactic - say all you want and wrap it up nicely by saying you didn't mean it. haha
Eh but I'll most def shut up 'cause I'm not smart

[LazerRays]

I think you're smart yumna... :(

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Smart enough to know when I'm being told to shut up, but not more than that 😢😛

[LazerRays]

Sigh. I think you are very smart...

[Dr. YumnaKay]

And you're flattering 😉😍

[LazerRays]

:P I just speak truth
;)

[emmajoy]

Interesting suppositions here. Wondering if you're making excuses for self, not quite ready to give or share. Methinks when it happens, there'll be few questions in your mind. So i've been told!!!!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I think I did share and give a lot too, though maybe not to the right one... Thank you for your thoughts here, Emma. I appreciate.

[emmajoy]

Whatever I leave for my friends is carefully honest or, mayhaps .. honestly careful - anda touch protective, dear you.

[Ken Simm.]

True of many of the different types of love. Wonderful thoughts.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Thank you, Ken. I appreciate your words here (:

[Jacob Clifford]

I think it's more a fear of being alone/innate need for companionship that drives us to search for a lover, more than it actually being what's right for us. Raw ramblings these may be, but they are very potent and deep.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I agree with what you say. Maybe that's how it really is...
thank you for sharing your thoughts here, C. I appreciate it (:

[Mr.Writer]

Yeah, it could just be an illusion of thoughts and things we want to believe, but they're not true, they could just be lies, as you said!
Such a well constructed, emotional and thought provoking poem Yumna...
Well done, keep it up!! :))

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Thank you, Shaan. I appreciate your words here (:

[Mr.Writer]

No problem Yumna :)

[Sinbulvinter]

Whoa, really deep view here, Yumna. Really Thought provoking and I find it very true. I think us, as humans, have some sort of need for love and companionship that's wired into us, and it explains why some people long for it so badly or stick with relationships just to have one. Awesome work.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I think you're right. Maybe it's a form of surviving...
I appreciate your thoughts here. Thank you, Nerissa (:

[Sinbulvinter]

no problem

[Carol Cashes]

From Dune: Plots within plots within plots...

You know it's real, when YOU get real and they don't run.

Swirling and Twirling Words...like the Merry-Go-Round I refer to in Ode to Writer's Cafe Poets. This kind of talent was exactly what I was referring to.

And honey, I'd bow, but I was in a 4 car pile up first thing this morning, (no injuries and not MY fault!) and then my boss needed information that was no longer where I left/saved it and had to hunt like Sherlock for, and THEN I so professionally put into an Excel Spreadsheet for the convenience of the recipient - from 11:15 am to 3:30 p.m. I am tired, hangry, and I got a half o' bag of Double Stuffed Oreos waitin' that I can hear callin' me over the traffic outside my office.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

hahah thank you for this entertaining review, Carol! Made me laugh :) Glad you appreciate (:

[Sir Drift & Mr. Pulse]

Maybe, just maybe, but all I know is that the truth is somewhere deep inside the illusion. Perhaps it started out as a good intended idea and fell within the multi loopholes that never stopped, and there forgot what it was.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

perhaps, perhaps... I intend to find out...
thank you for your insight here, Drift. I appreciate it.

[BBP]

Loved the opening line here. Good write my friend! Ramblings are my favorite!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Ah, so good to see you around here, Bev! Thank you for appreciating this write (: I thought you'd left lol ;p

[BBP]

Nope! Lol just haven't been around in here much lately. But not gone for good lol

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Hahah of course! I would hate that lol how's Richie been so far? 😎😛

[BBP]

Wellll he's backkkkk ! lol I forgot what chapter you last read but I can send you a few to catch you up

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Lol it was somewhere in 20s :p but yeah send me some 😎 would love to read Richie being spanked hahah 😛😂

[BBP]

Lmao uhhh he's def not getting spanked lol

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Hahah well then anything with Richie in it would do 😎😛😂