Distant

Inspired by Gullia King..

I've heard that distance makes love stronger.. This didn't happen in our case..

It just melted away.. Like tiny shards of glass piercing my heart and finally sunk in.. I can't bear this anymore.. 

I hadn't realized at first what 2 years of staying away from you would do to me. Now I know.. 

The first night without you.. I sat on the porch, looking up at the sky, counting stars.. Making myself believe that somewhere you too would be looking at them.. 

And then it became a routine..  

Looking up at the stars, blowing them a kiss so that the wind would carry it over to you.. I've actually lost count how many stars I gazed at.. 'Cause I could see nothing on 'em except your face.. Smiling down at me.. 

I willed myself to believe that you did care. That you aren't as gone as it sounds.. For you are in my heart still and nothing would change that.. 

 

And then the reality hit...  

You are gone.. You are never gonna come back, are you?

Author's Note

This was inspired by Gullia King.. That is not to say that it isn't real..
Don't feel sad, guys, 'S all good ☺

Reviews

[Lorry]

The heart and mind hopes that what we see, the other will see too, yet there always comes the realisation that it isn't so. But for all we feel dejected at that thought, there will always remain that flicker from within that they will feel us when we think of them, no matter the time or distance that separates us.
A wonderfully captured thought, that most of us can relate to, having been there at some point in our lives.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Yes, I agree with you.. the hopes are what keeps us alive..
Thank you for your thoughts here, Nemo! Really appreciate it :)

[Lorry]

You're welcome :)

[Giulia King]

Oh, wow Yumna! I'm so happy and flattered that I have insipired you!! :) This is a wonderful story! I feel like you can keep writing it and make it longer.
"Looking up at the stars, blowing them a kiss so that the wind would carry it over to you." Favorite line!

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Sadly, I couldn't go on... Had it been not a real one it would have been an easier thing to do but there isn't a happy ending yet...
Thank you for the lovely review, Gullia! I'm glad someone did inspire me to write ☺
I knew you would like the line with 'stars' in it 😂😂😂

[Giulia King]

You know me well 😂😂

[Dr. YumnaKay]

I think I do! 😉💜

[barleygirl]

One of the most creative descriptions of someone being gone, as the narrator clings to false hopes, so well-described using the "star" analogy. I've had long-distance loves like this & it seemed to be a way to NOT live my own present moments -- such a waste of all the gifts of each day -- I think you've shown us this with the pining away that the narrator is doing. I like the way you show us her realization dawning slowly & painfully.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

This is really me that I portray here so yes it was painful to write.. It's good to know it was effective! Thank you for the kind words ☺

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What's up with all the tear jerkers... I'm sleep deprived so I have no business reviewing...it's beautiful but pretty damn sad...a reflective accepting voice... I don't know I'm rambling. Always beautiful from you. Starz x

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Hah no need to feel sad beautiful! This wasn't supposed to make anyone sad :p
Thank you for the lovely review though :)

[Jibey]

I guess that's what the loss of a loved one can lead to... Get across a keen sense of loss.

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Yes indeed! Thank you for your thoughts here! ☺