Love LetterA Poem by Anatomical GripGoodbye is the only way.My love, My heart and brain have been " eaten. Please stop. Your efforts to keep me will not be " sweetened. Nothing remains. What a cliché to say only a empty shell
is left behind. So happy I could die. No, you misunderstand. I don’t mean I’m
so happy that I can die happily. I am happy that I am able to die. That soon I would have brought this madness to a
stillness. This world into oblivion. Begin my descent into delirium. Is life worth living,
should I blast myself? The hold tightens, suffocates, secures, and congeals. A suicidal tendency that has always been " concealed. You’re cordially invited to my hara-kiri. While I ponder weak and
weary. The self-slaughter of my thoughts, the self-destruction of
my own heart " I will not let you take it from me. Forgive me when I ignore your hard cried pleas. I swear to God I want to
just slit my wrists and end bullshit/Throw the magnum to my head, threaten to
pull s**t. See the necrosis of my being. I die now. I die soon. Three days buried beneath the earth induces madness. Feral
and wounded " it will not be lifted from me. Tomorrow, and tomorrow,
and tomorrow. Self-murder is hopeful. It is brave. Don’t call me
selfish. Don’t tell me to keep fighting. You want to keep me here, like a
hostage. We both know it’s for your own piece of mind. Not mine. Sometimes even to live is
an act of courage. A self-hate you have failed to realize I’ve " nourished. I want to die. I want to evaporate. Disappear. In life I
am the unliving, the walking dead. The Grim Reaper will not come to take me. I have made my
own ruination appointment. I am scheduled to die even through your " disappointment. Suicide is man’s way of
telling God, “You can’t fire me " I quit.” You cry out when it is your love and not death that I " spit. Take a good look. Don’t
ever forget. Cause’ this is the last time you will ever see my face. I feel you. Remember you. Love you. You are a harbinger of
peace. Of mind. Of heart. Of spirit. You bring beauty and life. I wish you hadn’t asked me to be your " wife. This will all end soon with a knuckle-guarded " knife. But it’s alright, I’ll be seeing you again from the " afterlife. You must have figured out by now that, still, I want to
die. You want me to deny, but all I can do is " defy. Remember me softly, my dear, not so harsh and jagged. By
the time you receive this, the weapon to my brain will have already " zigzagged,
past the doorways that have been " sandbagged. Forever
your ghost, your love. © 2016 Anatomical Grip |
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Added on December 21, 2016 Last Updated on December 21, 2016 AuthorAnatomical GripSeattle, WAAboutMy name is Yoha and I am currently doing my Master's in Creative Writing at U-dub in Seattle. more..Writing
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