Time Bomb

This might not rhyme as much as I do usually
Because I usually dont think how I'm thinking
Like my brain is a time bomb paused
or the bomb is behind four walls and when it does finally explode
noone will here it but me.

School is harder than its ever been not the material
just paying attention and trying to care about what the teacher is saying.
I feel like everyone has been lying to me
Ive always heard life isn't fair
but it must be if the cards I was slipped under the table are being taken away

So now im left with a joker faced down
laughing because its funny how life is sometimes
You never know what you have until its gone
but life is a game and its up to me if I win or lose

So I bet my joker
that if i ever am a king and get my queen
then it wont mean jack unless
I play the hand I was dealt

Its weird Ive never been big on material things
But when their taken away I notice
Like the light at the end of the tunnel is blocked by a train
coming full speed and if I do make it out alive
I am home free
If I dont I shouldve taken another route

I hate being called a product of my environment
I am more like a remainder
After everyone around me has been divided in groups
I am whats left

Sorry for saying I so much
It makes me seem self centered
But trust me these words are more valuable
Than the cash in my pocket to me

Then again Ive been low on cash
So they might be to you to
Freedom of speech is only applicable to those who can afford it
Im sure I will have to pay my dues later

But right now I'm not thinking straight
like my brain is a time bomb paused
or the bomb is behind for walls and when it does finally explode
noone will hear it but me.