what should i do now. ive ran out of ideas in my life. all my plans crushed. why should i remake some more that will never happen?what do i do. my hands against the cold window looking out what should i do? believing in every word ive written . creating books that make no sense. looking into ur eyes i hate myself more. i never meant to hurt you why cant you understand .the reason i ignore every text and every call is i dont want to hurt you again im afraid to. i wish i could come back to you sum times but what if i burn you? what if? you asked me out again i just ignored you thought i hated you no,no. i dont. i just dont want to hurt you again. now what to do with my life . all i have is yiruma and river flows in you. hold on let me think ronnie please dont hate me . hush, hush . angels around us watching demons in my room. will they ever go away? ill never hate you. you'll never understand. im too afraid to burn you again. you have moved on . but just know why. i do everything for a reason always and forver do each of my words have meanings . maybe complex to figure out but theres a riddle between each whisper i speak. every word i draw . i mean what i write but sum times not what i say. a riddle is there. now what to do with my life. ? confused . very much.