Only Way Out

Another dark piece about love, loss, and self hate

You will never know

The tears I have cried

The day that we ended

Was the day that I died

Missing you so much

Love you even more

Grown tired of hurting

For my heart is sore

Unable to explain

Just where I went wrong

But I guess in this life

I do not belong

Never look back

I did not exist

Of all the lost loves

You are the top of the list

I loved my kids

Wanted to be a father

With a waste like me

Why even bother

Life to me

Seeming so unbearable

When even the best days

Turn out terrible

Barrel of gun

Blade of a knife

Not knowing how

To end my strife

Your ultimate happiness

Was all I desired

Reduced to an existence

All but expired

Death...used to scare me so

My time is up

It is time to go

Simply nothing else to give

Making death a welcome alternative

Just know

It was not your fault

For bad seeds, render worse results

Just know

It was not you

You did just what

You had to do

Needing to dismiss

This tumultuous strife

Only way out is this

To snuff out this life...goodbye...