Name Your Poison

Another one for the suffering

First taste of death

      Take your first drink

You are just hurting yourself

      You so selfishly think

Not a care in the world

      For the lives you affect

Denial and doubt

      For the lives you have wrecked

Your personal disaster

      Conscience numb and impaired

You selfish b*****d

      There are people who cared

Stumbling around

      Always passing the blame

Playing Russian roulette

      And losing the game

Forever making promises

      With no intention to keep

Body wide awake

      While mind is wide asleep

Seems the only thing that matters

      Is the taste of that next drink

As the world around you silently shatters

     Incapable to think

You say that you will be fine

    Fooled yourself into thinking

Can stop any time I want to

     All logic lost due to your drinking

A shot of guilt

     Perhaps a fifth of hurt

A perfectly mixed concoction

     For making you feel like dirt

One is far too many

     One hundred, not enough

Cold sweats in the middle of the night

     Simply existing gets quite rough

This dragon I have been chasing

     Alcohol has its many uses

It keeps my heartbeat racing

    Is the birth of all of my excuses

Always striving to maintain

   To stay upon the wagon

Forever falling off

   Now behind it I am dragging

Exactly how many times

   Must you hit rock bottom

Before you realize  the signs

   Use your senses while you got them

I am relentlessly hopeless

    So twisted and confused

A catastrophe of my own making

    By my own hands, I have been abused

Please God grant me the serenity

    In perhaps my final hour

I give myself to thee

    For , God...you are my higher power...