ENEMY ME

An excursion into self loathing...

Wretched thoughts

      Tortured visions

Not finding an exit

      To all this derision

Once in control

      Of what happened to me

Only a fleeting glimpse

      Of what used to be

Each day a new beginning

      To my bitter end

A lost cause

      Refusing to mend

Having tried everything

      To ease the pain

This terminal condition

      I cannot explain

On the brink of insanity

      Mind being tossed

Fighting but failing

     All hope is lost

Always searching for answers

     Of how and why

My well of answers

     Will soon run dry

Haunted by ghosts

     Of an eerie past

Wondering how much longer

     Can the nightmares last

This world is my prison

     My body, a cell

Imprisoned within

    My own mortal hell

Cannot bear

    The excruciating pain

Of the sound of silence

    Which drives me insane

Sins of my past

    They catch up with me

Lurking in the shadows

    They will not leave me be

Nowhere to run

    Nowhere to hide

There is no chance of escaping

   This terror inside

Each fleeting moment

     Of each passing day

Feeling what once was

     Quickly fading away

Fearing my future

     Detesting my past

Hating my present

     I am fading fast

What once was

     Shall never be again

Against this foe inside

    I cannot defend

I am not giving up

   Just refusing to try

Enduring this so called life

   But waiting to die...

 

Author's Note

Would like feedback ,critiques , etc.