Guilt Embodied

Dark portrayal of self evaluation

Having been raped

       Of all of my senses

Unable to feel

       I stand here defenseless

Final diagnosis

      Manic aggressive

Affection deficit disorder

      Classic depressive

Psychological profile

        Stares straight ahead

With insanity in style

        Fashionably  I tread

A tendency to become disturbed

        A deranged disposition

Leaving therapist perturbed

        In a world of inquisition

Demon come out

        Did not allow this intrusion

Left me scarred and dismembered

        With this lifelong contusion

Mind on vacation

        A cerebral excursion

All expense paid trip

        To the land of perversion

Whispering voices I hear

        Hear, then go away

This old dog has new tricks

         Every dog has his day

Empty soul giving in

          With very little resistance

Living a life full of sin

          With exalted persistence

Come out, come out

          Wheresoever  you be

Why have I chased my  own self

          So far away from me

Getting right with my god

          Cause I got wrong with me

Quit this lifelong façade

           Face the reality

Knowing no sense of peace

            Cannot relax or calm down

Incarcerated by emotions

             By chains of guilt I am bound

Accepting donations of sanity

              Lest my body reject

The moment of my conception

             Was the birth of my defect

Introducing old friends

             Misery, meet most tainted

No need for introductions

           For we are fondly acquainted

This guilt all consuming

           Needing some sense of release

Inevitable  torment still looming

           I am as good as deceased....