Running

I saw things

that I knew weren't really there

I couldn't take it anymore

so I just had to get out of the house

 

I take more meds than a 15 year old should

because when I'm alone

the darkness floods in

so I just had to get out of the house

 

when I left the house

I ran

to nowhere in particular

I had to run from the darkness

from the medication

from the sanity and insanity

I just had to get out of the house

 

I couldn't run

physically, that's not hard

what's hard is running away from your mind

and that's impossible

 

I couldn't take my mind anymore

I couldn't take the darkness

it was so much

I'm not supposed to be this messed up

I just couldn't take it

 

I stopped running

I knew this would never end

nothing my friends, family or doctor could ever say

anything that would make me sane

 

so I jumped

the bridge was just there

it was an easy way out

I didn't really think this time

it just happened

no thoughts

just my body in mid air

which is weird

because the only thing I do

is think

 

 

Author's Note

another rushed poem. sorry, I didn't edit