my mind

physically

I feel that I am alone

I feel as if I have no one in my life

but

I know that I am surrounded by people who love me

and who will be there for me

but in my mind

I am alone

no matter how many people surround me in the real world

I am alone mentally

because no matter how much people say that they love me

I can never love myself, or who I am

I can be with a large group of people

but nobody

can ever

be with me in my mind

nobody can ever know what I am actually thinking

nobody can be with me in my mind.

so I am permanently alone

in my mind

that drives me to insanity