My Loneliness and I

My Loneliness and I

By

Jose M. Euvin

 

 

Do you still think about me?

Is my pain still tattooed in yours?

 

How is it that you love me,

And Yet

You are with him!

 

I could relate all my pain

Back to you

My inspiration is born

In you

 

The pain fuels my desires

And

I write

 

Why does it matter

If the letters were all wrong

You knew exactly

What I meant to say

 

Who you find yourself with

At the end of the night?

I know is not me!

 

You speak of love

But do you know what love is?

Can you even feel?

 

You attach yourself to pity

Trying to change the world

To forget me!

 

Maybe by fixing someone else

Will make you forget

What has gone wrong

 

I welcome you to close our book

Help me let you go

 

Why do you make me relive it all again

As you desire

 

As a little boy

I was afraid to be alone

 

I figured

If kept the light on

Their will always be someone near

 

As I grew up

I surrounded myself around others

So I wouldn’t feel alone

 

Yet I’ve always been the loneliest soul!

 

When I met you

It suddenly changed

 

Yet I was not too sure what that feeling was

Because I never felt it before

 

I’ve forced myself to love before

But it wasn’t love

It was desolate

 

I always felt the loneliest

Yet

You changed my world

 

Not knowing what I had

I threw it all away

 

Afraid to be with someone

For once

And

Not alone

 

How funny!

When I was a kid

I never wanted to be alone

When I finally had the chance

The chance to be with someone

I chose to be alone

 

I was afraid to loose my loneliness!

 

My loneliness and I

Have become such good friends

That I was afraid to let her go

 

So I did everything wrong

To feel right once again

 

Is funny how my loneliness

Had a side

Whose face I never saw before

 

This time my word really collapsed

The thing I was always afraid of

Became my best friend

 

 My best friend

Became my worst enemy

Once I met you

 

Yet how I’ll trade it all

Just to live it once again

 

For that brief moment

I felt alive!

 

 

Reviews

[melissa]

You are one of my favorite writers so far send me more to read I love them

[PoemRodent]

Overall a good read, keep up the good work and feel free to send me a request when ever..

Love and Thoughts,

Dostani

[El-Enano]

For that brief moment

I felt alive!


We need to suffer to feel alive sometimes, i guess thats why people cut themselves....

[Augusta]

The person you yearn for in all your poems isn't the one for you...b/c if she was...she would be with you right now...

it's great you wrote the pieces of your broken heart out...I liked 'I welcome you to close our book'

[Cataline]

I really enjoyed reading this poem. I love how it flows from one feeling to the next. One minutes you are friends with your loneliness, the next you hate it. Also, I particularly liked these lines "I never wanted to be alone/When I finally had the chance/The chance to be with someone/I chose to be alone" I think it poses a good note about human nature, and how sometimes we go against what we want. (I can relate)

[M I N D Y]

An interesting writing... to go from missing to embracing the way you feel now and how we would do it all again knowing. There are a few typos in the above but nothing that took away from the reading or meaning here in your words. I especially liked your writing about loneliness being your friend. It was very different and something I liked and enjoyed.

[Angelheaded Hipster]

I like the writing, it is something different, and I like change....
I would go over the piece though, and look for tense changes, and little typos. It doesn't take away from the feelings at all, and I didn't stumble, but it would help immensely.

To embrace loneliness as a friend, then to meet someone, and to love them, then to have the loss....it is a sad thing, but I think that we learn so much about ourselves, and how we learn to cope with the dull ache of the empty feelings inside.

I think you have done a great job at expressing heartache, anger, and acceptance of it all well.

[Ladysue]

I think most of us have been here at one time or another. A great piece with an ending that says it all.

[Kevin Colaprete]

Seems like the poem exudes a bitter/sweet mood.

[Spoken]

Many people push away the ones they love because they are scared of what they feel. Unknown paths can be very terrifying things. It gives me an eerie kind of feel just because as I read I felt someone who was in my life was saying those words to me. You've invoked memory and emotion, this is the best thing you could do as a writer. Well done!