No Regrets

 

No Regrets

 

We start simply by saying what no one could understand

This feeling of love and strength that we have as we grow

The true bond of friendship that makes all others seem obsolete

From the first day to our very last

Many of you will not understand till I finally have to say

She is the reasons why my heart still beats this day

 

From day one when I first laid my eyes on her

There was nothing that seemed to stand out as I looked from the corner of my eye

Someone who was about average height at best

A little skinny by even the standards of my own

The same typical long hair that every other girl seems to have

Yet that day something just drew me in that would never let go

 

I looked back at the image that lay in my mind

Someone so ordinary yet somehow I just couldn’t let go

All the thoughts of her face shown as bright as day

I made the decision later that day

To find a way to approach that girl if it’s the last thing I did that day

 

To the first conversation we had face to face

Using the computer as our way to keep in touch

Never crossing the lines that were drawn from the start

Holding back any emotions as time was not on our side

Waiting to finally acknowledge that a meeting must be set

 

As the nervous tensions crept by my side

Waiting by the bench as the sun stood frozen in time

From the left or the right, I stared forever each way

Waiting as the light cleared the way

Finally seeing that girl I still did not know

 

Onto the first “date” that we set up months ago

So afraid we both were of meeting up for the first time

Not as friends, but neither as something more

Just meeting up to see how we both would do

Waiting to see who would falter in their first steps

 

Out for drinks and a little lunch

Yes it was “lunch” which everyone knows meant as friends

But it did not deter the efforts that I would put forth

To gain your trust, to finally open you up

That was the test that she put forth

Would I succeed or fail as miserable as before

 

To the real first date that only trust could build

Dinner and a movie, finally a step towards something new

A chance to finally prove that we could be so much more

Was this the calling that fate had in store

To finally be able to see us become something more

 

We sat, we talked

We laughed, we even cried

What was so different was we could finally let go

Be ourselves and not worry about when the other had to go

The start of what should have become something more

 

Until the day we had nothing left to say

All the dates where we shared all that we had

Never holding back cause we thought this was the one

Only to see us fall a part

The very first “love” that I ever did have

Did not last as long as I wished it had

 

But to our surprise we did not have any lingering thoughts

Forgetting about the drama that did unfold

Letting go of a past to start something new

Even as friends we did not see that as a step back

This was again the start of what we needed to get through

 

Although they may never understand the story that played out

Even will all the fights and the “I Hate You”

We became something that we both did need to grow

The trust we built that only lovers could share

Carried on even as the relationship did die

 

Is that not something that makes it worth all the pain of goodbye?

Still being together even when “love” decides to die

Reviews

[Stacey Watts]

Wow this was a very poweful piece. Very heartwrenching and pulls at the emotions. I like the flow of this and the sadness you brought into this. Excellent job.