I'm Sorry Till the End

A poem about the sacrifices we are willing to make for that one person in our lives that we hold so dear. Yet eventually realizing what must be done when nothing is made clear.

 

I'm sorry for always being the one there
Holding your hand when every time he lets you go
When he hurts you again, but you still decide to go back for more
When he makes you cry, never any tears of joy
For causing you pain that only he chooses to show
For never stopping your steps as you go back for more
For not being someone who ever stopped you before

I'm sorry for never having the nerve to yell at you once
Even when you were the one that tore my walls apart
Even when you decided to question our friendship right from the start
For never standing firm as you kept making the same mistake
For always choosing to look the other way as you walked away with that other man
For never being someone that chose to not care

I'm sorry for never choosing to take advantage of you
Even when you were wasted and would never know
Even when you shed so many tears and wanted to let him go
For never telling you to break up with him cause we knew you deserved more
For always choosing to tell you to figure it out
For never telling you that every time I wanted to be with you above all else

I'm sorry for being the one that would always drop everything just to hear what you had to say
For always telling my family I had to go
For always leaving everyone behind just so I wouldn't be disturbed
For even risking the loss of things I hold dear just because I could hear your tears as they fell
Even as I was with someone else, you always came first
Even as everyone said I was just a door mat that would be used and eventually let go

I'm sorry for trying to be the friend that you could trust over anyone else
For always letting you know that I would be there for you no matter what
For wishing so much that you would be mine, but always holding back because it was always as a friend we stood
For never choosing to complicate your life even though my feelings would always continue to grow
Even as I hear you love someone else and I would hold back my tears
Even though you will never know that forever is how long I will choose to stand and show
Even though you will leave me, more and more

Above all else, I'm sorry for trying to be the one that you would love to be with
For being the one that you say you always look for but never taking a look
For living up to the expectations that many would fail at
Even going so far as watching you go away because your happiness was not with me
Even as the tears will fall because I will never be anything more, letting you go just so we both can be free
Even as this dream begins to fade, I still push you to find someone else, someone who you will love and never let go

I'm sorry for being everything you ever wanted, even as I began to lose myself
I'm sorry for being the one that has to let you go
And through it all, I'm sorry for not being more than even I choose to show
Because in the end my goodbye will be what I am most sorry for

Reviews

[ABitBrokenPoetry]

very sad, emotional write. it does always seem like people get attached to the ones who are the worst for them, bring them down, treat them bad, do them wrong, even tho they have the perfect person in the background, they are too selfish & wrapped up in their own dramas to notice. this has a nice subtle flow to it & the repetition gives it strength. a sad but great write.