Futility is an exercise in patienceA Poem by Yan ZhangA poem about living in the "bad" part of town.
Futility
is an exercise in patience out here, in the ‘hood, as they used to call it" now it’s just called “nowhere” now that the glamour has left and the T.V. cameras packed up too once there was nothing to see nowhere to be out here, in nowhere, some call it no-man’s-land" the empty space between dreams and reality, or as we like to call it, the day we got beat up ‘cus someone thought it’d be funny to watch our fingerbones breaking, one by one out here, in our dreams, (we call them crazy)" there are tall trees everywhere and litte kids with plastic shovels digging holes in the playground, but our dreams go like cigarette smoke and they vanish like silent souls futility is an exercise in patience we know all of that word it shudders in our every bone it smoulders in our every breath" futility; the absence of hope but so too do we know “patience” yes, we know how to wait for promises made, buses late, money withheld" jobs denied, mothers expecting, fathers absent, love delayed; for all these, we wait and wait we have gnawed these words to bare bones lived in them threadbare for years so how is it that, still, after all these barren years," when the “absence of” cleaves to the “waiting for”; they still give birth to"“Hope?” futility is an exercise in patience no one knows this better than we who live out here in the middle of nowhere we with our big, silly dreams" we’ll settle for a playground or just a happy little kid because we know how to read between the lines" search the empty spaces between dreams and reality, even when there is nothing worth seeing We’ll find something worth waiting for. © 2013 Yan ZhangAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorYan ZhangAboutArt, writing, and thoughts from the young and unafraid. Started 2013, continued now and forever. Read and do not weep. more..Writing
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