I Hate-----

If you hate me.. think first how much I hate myself

You guys hate me for getting what I don't deserve in the first place. Okay, I get. It's my fault. It will always be my fault. My own adversary is myself. Call me names like w***e, s**t, b***h or whatever u want. I'm used to it. If you guys hate me that much, well, what about me? Do you know how much I hate myself? I hate myself for being me. I hate myself for wanting someone that will show me that they love me for who I am. I hate myself because I'm not her. I hate myself for always being sad. I hate myself because I am that girl who over thinks about everything. I hate myself for not being what they wanted me to be. I hate my life. I hate how my reflection in the mirror shows the real me. I hate my body. I hate my face. I hate my smiles for they are not real. I hate my eyes for showing what I really feel inside. I hate my voice, it sucks. I hate my laugh because it's the sign that I am having fun. I hate that I am alive. I hate for pushing my friends away when I need them most. I hate everything about me and you don't need to remind me because I, myself-- I already hate myself. They're already haunting me. By day or even in my dreams.