LostA Poem by xxox
staring at this blank page, i just cant think
starting to wonder, who am i without the drink my whole life is starting to lose its way what scares me the most is that i have no say too many friends i have decided to ditch maybe life isn't better when your a b***h they say im too pretty to have my face as a cake i'm just not understanding how i became so fake buying pushup bras and dressing like a s**t who i used to be just doesn't make the cut drinking all the time , the only fruit i buy is limes partying everynight, and calling hook ups good times most nights i just cry myself to sleep why now am i so shallow and not deep im f*****g up my life slowly one thing at a time im at the bottom , like little particles of grime loving a boy but sleeping at his bestfriends house trying to go behind his back , quietly like a mouse now hes told me he hates me and wont talk to me anymore he said were done for good and now hes closing the door now i keep getting into trouble with the cops and the law blowing the breathalyzer at the side of the road where everyone saw going to parties and getting in fights these are now my daily nights having a kill count and spending money on getting drunk man , honestly all my important morals have just sunk this is not the girl i ever wanted to be i wish i could change to be a new me so everyone wishes that they were pretty your the one that's going to get the pity trust me, popularity isn't all what it seems its not that way you saw it in your dreams im slowly starting over and its going to be hard theres no luck to this or the way i play my card ill only keep the friends i can be real with anyone can change , ill prove its not a myth. © 2010 xxoxReviews
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Added on September 4, 2010Last Updated on September 4, 2010 |