Shut Up, Speak With Your Heart

Chapter 5


Eyes meeting his was like a spark, the way he wants to hide from me, show his sign of pity. The expressions he makes, they just make me want to be with him and hold him tight through his hardships. Yet, I know that even my love and my kindness could recover from his business issues. Each tingle would never be enough, his aid was not with me for now, but rather his own family issues. Walking towards, I could not find a solution, yet Lelouch looked rather panicked. His lips looked pressed on each other almost as if he was biting down on his fragile lips. His eyes seems as if I was the only person he wanted to see at the moment, while his sister is around him as if she was his dearest, taking a deep breath. I could see the beauty in his sister, both of them had looked rather fragile, but the expression on Lelouch had been pained. My eyes could only lowered, as I tried to comprehend what has gone through on the telephone with Lelouch. Walking towards him, I placed my hand on one of his own. "Lelouch?" Moving from my own hands, I placed them right on waist and pulled him close. "Lelouch, I'm still here even if they take everything away, along with Nunnally." I whisper in his ears, trying to sooth him. I know my words had been rather dull from my point of view, but what could I say. With hands on my chest, I understand he would want to push me away, but with a sudden surprise his hands raised up the level of my chest. As he placed them over my own heartbeat, it almost made me want to pull him in closer, but I need self control.

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"Lelouch?" Touching his hair, and pushed them behind his ears. I could see his violet eyes would never direct at mine. Only my eyes would hunger for his heart only, but those gazes would never reach them would they. Placing my fingers on my own lips, I really wondered since when did I started thinking about these thing? Eyes meeting mine, I gently turned around realizing my own mental and physical state here. His eyes turned at me as they shown a refection of my own, his attention at mine. Looking over to his sister, I could see we are right in the middle of the road. Without thinking, I looked back at Lelouch. "We have extra rooms, do you want to live at our place?" Turning my eyes over to Lelouch, his eyes meet mine and he quickly turned it the other direction. "Yeah," he eyes never daring to meet mine, but I knew this was his last resort, which he had never dare to mention. "We better hurry before we are going to be late," touching Lelouch's finger and placing them on Nunnally's wheelchair handles. His lips never daring to show the smile he was feeling. Touching my over palm, I could feel the sensation of his own hands against mine, but yet the tingle felt different.

Heading towards the subway stations had always been a funny, Lelouch's arms on mine as he tries to remain calm even though the subway rather looked like a dungeons in mid evil times, if it had more torture devices of course. The way the lights were dim and many people piling up just to await their death, except only waiting for a subway to come and pick them up. Lights flickering, as Nunnally could feel the shifting of the lights and Lelouch having ideas in his head. Passing moments rather was going soothingly for Suzaku, in someway it rather felt better going home alone with Lelouch rather then himself. Within moment, the place crowded that it was indeed it was hardly able to see Lelouch. Locating his arm, I knew the train was coming, since the train station was flooded with people. Fingers sliding down to meet with his own entanglement finger against mines, as the handles were used as a support. Moment's passed by as the train rushed through us, and just with that I pulled him close. "Lelouch," I whisper his name against his ears, as I could feel his body tremble as he winced as if he was preparing for me to kiss him. Making a soft smile, I took the handles and I pushed Nunnally into the subway as Lelouch was rather following behind me dumbfounded. Taken into a tighter space behind the subway, our eyes watched other as his face flushed rather then mine. Yet the tight space had found it difficult to move. Lips not to distant from each other and body no farther apart then a centimeter, we dare to not touch with on Nunnally to watch over. As the shifts from the train had caused us to brush into each other, even with the heat of our gazes when we did would not faze.

Like each trip, the amount of people lessen to give us distance, but to only cringe between myself. I wish to explore this side of him more, but yet I could not. Lelouch, lost and ripped apart from his riches, had now had been in the same level as him, a commoner. Arriving mid way, the train had came to a stop. Touching Lelouch by his shoulder, indicated that it was time to get off. Pushing Nunnally off the train was quite irritating due to the gap between the wheelchair and the station front. Deliberately, Lelouch pushed Suzaku by the back intentionally forcing Nunnally wheelchair on the station front. Giving him a look, I was not have been right, Nunnally might have actually gotten hurt. Rolling my eyes for a second, I could take a deep breath so I wouldn't actually complain about his behaviors, but at least we were out safely. Soon the train had taken it departure for another city. Making a soft sigh, I begun pushing the wheelchair again, but with eyes shut. Lelouch's behaviors were rather childish, but why would he be so fond of them, especially seeing sides of him which he had never seen in the boy. Ever so slowly, did he feel lips pressed on his, as he inhaled the intoxicating scent, minty. Making a small sigh, did he pushes his own lips toward Lelouch's. "You win."

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Arriving home, Suzaku could scream his parent's name, but they wouldn't be there. Suzaku's parents had always been busy workers unable to make time for the two to come to visit their own child. Pressing his lips together, and opening the lights the house had looked rather decent and neat as ever. Making a soft smile to the two, and tapping Nunnally's head had he been able to confirm the two were staying. Holding Lelouch's luggage and Nunnally's items, he could place them on the side for now. Living life solely, he had been able to enjoy, but living with two other people how was he suppose to react. Showing the two their room, he had been able to give the two spaces. Yet his own room was to be in the same as Lelouch's since it was rather a bunk bed. After a day with the two, he could feel a hint of relief as his day was coming to an end, as Lelouch awaited on the other side of the bunk bed for him to shut the lights. Making a smile, I closed the lights as I headed toward the lower level which Lelouch was on and manged to say. "Lelouch, I'll take care of you both till your father has the money." He gently stroke Lelouch's hair. Awaiting for a while, had he been able to move to the corner of the bed and grabbed the ladder and reach to the topper level. "Good night."