hold me

ridiculous

"when u grab ahold of me, tell me i will never be set FREE"

 

if you've ever looked for love in all the wrong places or found love and somehow lost it. i feel ya. ive been really kinda a let down to my previous lovers. i just dont know what exactly it is im lookin for. but i suppose so far just wasnt it. im kinda hurt by this. my heart refuses to guide me into uncharted waters and ive never truly loved someone and i think the fact of this... well maybe its just because im uncomfortable in that sort of place. like lost in my head. or selfish. or scared. i just really dont know. it drives me f****n crazy. i love hook ups. but love puts me in a very vulnerable position that makes my life just that much harder. and i get paranoid and jealous and just dumbfounded by the way i feel. life showed up and i still dont wanna feel.