The Truth

a poem about my depression

I sit here and smile,

but you can't see the pain,

I'll laugh in the sunshine,

but in my real world it is rain,

don't ask why I'm upset,

because I really don't know,

there's just a sadness inside,

killing me all so slow,

when the sun sets,

and your day ends,

I lie awake,

isolated by my fear,

because you don't see her but i know she's here,

there is a monster in my life,

I call her Adriana,

she eats away at the happy things,

replacing them with the depression and tears,

I've come to fear,

so will you follow me into the dark,

protect me from this place,

the black hole in my life,

someday i will cave,

forgetting what happy is,

because now there is only pain,

losing all sense of self,

the way I smile,

and the things I say,

eventually I will give in,

because my darling,

without you here,

there is no reason to live.