Absence of Love

When that special thing or person you held close to you is no more. What takes their place?

It's not fair
When someone you used to love
Is no longer there
Their presence disappearing from your heart
Wondering do you deserve happiness
The lifespan of love never lasts for me
It feels like one big catastrophe
One minute they say they love you
The next minute they're so cold

Why must you distant yourself from me
You remember the promise we made?
That nothing would ever tear us apart.
What happened to that special moment we shared?
Your absence makes me feel that you never cared

I cannot bear to be in this roller coaster of lies
Lies that are tearing me apart inside
Sad to say
I don't know who I am any longer
How could I allow someone to have such control over me?
A control that has me not recognizing the one in the mirror
Who is this stranger staring back at me?
Why did they appear when this person I labeled my everything disappeared?
Are they the reason for me being barren inside?
And responsible for this dark cloud over me?
Or… am I severely lacking something in my being
All I know is things weren't the same once you left
And my life will never be the same ever again

The absence of love
My love
My lifeline
My soulmate
You left me so torn
And so broken
Without you...
Am I slowly dying inside?
Only time will tell.