I'm Scared - 01/08/2015 – 6:35PM

friendship and heartbreak

Reds and greens

Black and white

Sorrow held

On top of trees

Pick a number

Do your time

Love me then

Till you find someone else

I love the girls

That hurt me most

Honesty is sexy

Only if it’s what you want to hear

Do your time

Pay respects

Love you unconditionally

My heart in two

Fill the gaps

Make me live

Laughter and sorrow

Pay your respects

We’re older now

High school’s gone

Separated by s**t in life

We’re all grown up now

No looking back

Save me please

Blood divine

Save me now

I f*****g love you

All you want is sex

I’m a guy

I’m a penis

That’s what you got wrong

Making love to you in my sleep

Cold showers and saliva

Dreaming and crying

Te adoro

All I have left to say

Te adoro

Fill me with your rainbowed soul

White out my darkness

Colors divine

Reds and blacks

Whites and greens

Flying since you left

Saturn and full moons

Take me there

Wrap my arms around you

Kiss me goddammit

As I hug you from behind

Your neck smells so good

Caressing your pigtails

Anything with emotion

I’m a f*****g zombie

Don’t have a heart left inside

It’s dying day by day

So what now?

People say, “Move on.”

Bullshit!

Need that kiss

You’re what I miss

Down tunnels

Chasing you and wrestling to the ground

Cold grass and winter leaves

Pain is my disguise

Don’t feed me bullshit

“I know what you want.”

Bullshit!

A hug from behind

Kiss your neck

My legs go numb

Are you still you?

Because I am still me

Just want to taste your lips

Cold saliva

Sexual tension

Hurt me again

I love your crying eyes

Tears of reality

Clash down on concrete hearts

I still have a heart beat

I’m not what you think

A fake persona

Of being an a*****e

Hold my hand

Because I’m f*****g scared

Dark alleys and concrete

Light shining from blue emeralds

Golden hair

My lion’s mane

Be alone with me

Tears of reality

Love unfiltered

Hold my hand

Because I’m f*****g scared

Tumbling down tunnels

Light shines from the distance

Alice in Wonderland

And I’m Sleeping Beauty

The smell of your neck

My knees go numb

“I know what you want.”

Bullshit!

Take me hostage

The Devil made me

Run away from me

No… I won’t hide

Hold my hand

I’m f*****g scared

Climbing and falling

Pain in your eyes

Tear drops on concrete

Stars in the distance

Laying there

I knew magic was real

Wake up call

F**k! Run away!

If not then I’m dying

Razors and red velvet

Laying in my sleep

Hold my hand

Because of f*****g scared

Pain �" My addiction

Crying �" The solution

Sapphire lights

Golden hair

Bury me in sand

Stars flickering in darkness

Waking up

Was my life a dream?

Razors and red velvet

Scars in my heart

To remember you by

Never apologize

For being yourself

Your husband

I can’t compete

So I fall asleep instead

In dreams

My indulgence

My everything

Reality check

Buzz! Beep! Beep!

Zombie tunnels

Give me a sign

I’ll walk there for you

Hold my hand

Because I’m f*****g scared

 

Author's Note

Please be honest Good or bad.