Bitterness

i miss her..

I just want you to know, I’ve done too many bad things in my life and I shouldn’t be loved. My biggest mistake was hurtful towards someone I care about deeply and it didn’t have to happen. But it did. And I think about it non stop everyday and it rips me up inside. It’s the one thing in my life that I’ll always regret no matter what happens in the future. I took something perfect, and crushed it simply because I knew I could. It’s the wrongs in my life I’ll remember and not the good times. I can’t stress how much I’m hurt inside and need someone to fill my void but I ruined something and it can’t be fixed for a long time.

 

 I hope you take in slowly that I won’t be the same when time comes. I burned my feelings to ashes and became a cold hard rock. My lyrical flow is hurt the most as the out come; this is the first piece I’ve written since happenings. Young child, don’t cry. These are the good times. The moments you’ll always have to remember as I just sit back and think about the ending to this fairytale. For now I’ll keep you close in my heart and mind; remember to listen to the good signs. I’ll appear again whether it’s in sight or fiction. I know you can’t and won’t forget what I’ve done but don’t you remember? Bear in mind that I told you never to overlook me. You’re my guardian angel and that will not change in any amount of time. This sorrow is pathetic because I’m simply repeating what I told you. Don’t call me up on this proposition; I want you to be happy and trouble free. That’s why I’ve decided the fate of our emotions. If tears are dripping from your face as you search my words for something meaningful, one word and I’ll be there to make things all better. If you’re thinking, “Why in the world is he going out of his way to say something like this?”, I cannot answer your question. I merely do not know why I ponder my mind to beg forgiveness. I do not need to beg but as you know it’s hard for me to get through to peoples’ emotions; even my own, so this shouldn’t come as a surprise as many things I do in life. My conclusion to this far-from-art-work is this: I love you.