6. What You Did

I don't think she realized it...

There was once a time when I was whole,
So long ago when I was young,
But then two people assumed the role,
Of tearing me down until there was nothing left.
They tied me by the wrists and strung me up,
Stripped me down bear to wear and tear,
One took a gun, the other watched,
Together they worked to make me bleed.
She would promise to protect me,
I'd desperately believe her,
I'd wait for her to save me, 
But she never came.
Then he would raise the gun, aim it and shoot.
The pain is incomprehensible,
The agony I experienced was unfathomable,
The blood would spill, splashing out in plain sight,
The blood was everywhere, Mom,
I know you could see it,
And yet you stood back, 
You did nothing to help me.
Strung up and bleeding,
Sobbing and pleading,
You'd promise to protect me,
I believed you again,
But then he would raise the gun again,
I cried out for help but you didn't come,
Once again he'd shoot me,
Another wound, more pain,
I'd cry out in greater agony,
The bullet ripped my insides to pieces,
Tearing my heart apart,
Scarring my mind,
The blood spilled onto the ground,
Pooling beneath me, all around,
I looked into your eyes in searing pain,
But you stood there and watched me bleed.
He'd shoot me again, I'd cry out in pain,
The blood poured to the ground like crimson rain,
Streaks of scarlet, it's dark red hue,
Smeared in nightmarish quantities, pooled in front of you,
He'd shoot me, again and again,
I shut my eyes and counted to ten,
You still weren't there,
And that hurt worse than any bullet ever could have.
In the end my head just slumped,
I didn't even try to fight it anymore,
I completely gave up,
Bang, bang, bang, he'd shoot away,
I was emotionally bleeding out,
Dying inside,
The scars will never heal, 
In fact they still bleed.
He may have shot the gun, but Mother...
You let him.
You could have stepped in at any time.
It's your fault I received this pain...
As I hang there and cry,
Screaming in pain, wanting to die,
You stand there and watched me bleed...