Dear Dad

Dear Dad...

Im here to tell that i love you and that would never ever change
I remember you would take us to the park, like almost every single day
I remember you buying us mcdonalds and eating all of our fries
I would always eat them quick but billy, he would always cry
You tought me how to respect women and love them for who they are
That I should love and trust my mother, even from afar
Whenever I cried you would always give me a hug
you would tell me that boys dont drip tears, we only drip blood
You'd say i was just like you, so i shouldn't have cried
But holding in the tears made me bleed inside when i figured youd have lied
The day you left my mother, was when contradictions came in play
I questioned if you loved me, ever since you left that day
Ever since then i've been bleeding dad, but sometimes tears have leaked
I wonder if you have ever cried, when you ever thought of me
You Ever wonder how your kids have been since you left, just because of greed
Because you love money and other women more then your son who bleeds
Because of you, we have never even owned a house because money was always low
Now i live with people HERE, people i barely even know
They constantly talk behind are backs dad...People who I can't even trust
But thats always been a situation, like your problem with greed and lust
You gambled away our money and gave money to your other wife
We were forced to move out of our homes and make up a whole new life

You told me you had another son and that you loved me through and through
In my head I laughed at you, because mom already knew
You told me I was your favorite son and that we were just alike
But i learned something the other day that made me laugh in spite
When i was born you questioned the fact if i was really yours
You accused mother of cheating even though you have cheated way before
You told her i looked nothing like you, and that we didnt share blood
That made me bleed more dad, the river's now a flood
Your a walking contradiction , a man i can never learn to trust
You beat me and my brothers and said thats because you loved every one of us
But i still love you dad, and this is coming from where the heart is
Even though i disliked you ever since the bleeding started...
 

Reviews

[~D.A. Phoenix~]

I know exactly how you feel. I could go into monologue about it actually but i won't because it's five in the morning and that just doesn't work for me. Simply put mi padre es un grande culo or something to that effect. I've done the whole DNA test and it's always my wish that people have better fathers than mine but whatever. This is a really honest and heartfelt piece. I actually said things like this to my donor...not that he listened. But I know it feels good to get it out. It's really good that you still love the guy. I gave up on that a long time ago. As you can see it's best not to be me lol. I've obviously launched off into some other stuff. But I just want to say that this is good. Get it out and keep it moving. It's easier that way.

[Matt]

wow. all i have to say. bravo for being able to put such emotion into words. wow.

[Str8jacket]

People can always say they understand but it's not the same unless you were there standing in that place...but I do understand to a certain extent. Our lives used to be somewhat similar. I love this poem because it's so honest and heartfelt. I'm glad you were able to open up and I'm glad to have seen inside of you, even if it's just a little bit. I admire your strength. I hope one day you don't bleed anymore, because you deserve to be happy.