I'm sorry I love you

"How can I explain this to you? How can you understand? I don't even know where to start.. No, let me talk. I.. No, let me! It's hard enough already. Don't look at me that way, please. Hoow.. I'm sorry, ok? It's me. I swear. I've never loved someone as much as I love you. Night after night I stared at you while you were asleep, listening to your breathing. I was too afraid to just go to sleep, scared that you might be gone the next morning. Yes, I know that I need to get to the point. Sorry! But this is important, you need to know that I love you. No, don't touch me! You're making it way too hard if you touch me! Here's the point, it was great as long as nobody knew about us. No dream was as good as the reality. Ow, and I loved it to wake up in your arms, smell you, feel you all around me. Just let me speak! Yes I said I loved you! Just let me explain! Damn, now I'm crying. But everything changed when they found out about our relationship. And you know, I didn't even really care that all of a sudden almost everyone knew who I was. I'm your girlfriend, d****t! Why can't I be proud of that!? But than those letters.. No, I was hiding it from you on purpose. Nobody knew about it, accept me. As if you're not under enough pressure already. I didn't wanted to bother you with some stupid letters. You guys get them every day! Those I'd recieved didn't matter. But it kept on becoming worse. Sometimes there even was blood on the paper, and tears. Tears of hate! They hate me! The whole world hate me because of you! Because I love you! No, I won't calm down, I can't take it anymore! I said don't touch me! I can't go on, I don't want to, I won't! I don't want to watch my back for the rest of my life, be scared. Let go of me! I'm going and there's nothing you can do to stop me. I loved you, but I don't want to be killed by some crazy, obsessed fan. They'll kill me if I don't go. It's not your fault, but I can't go on like this. I feel like I'm dying! I'm sorry I love you."

Author's Note

I could use advise, so tell me what you think!