Outlet

I need to find a way to change

from this self-loathing fool 

to a man who masters his pain

who calculates his every gain

and doesn't squander the tools

he has been gifted with

nor mistreat the society that expects the same

I need to find a way to ground -

to sharpen the elasticity of my will

until my drive is completely sound

and I can assure my posterity in this world

so motivation is what I need

 to lift me up to where I want to be

 to me it remains pretty rare

but I think I'm slowly getting there