x- Let Down -x

I rebelled the thoughts that I was thinking
I violated the rules I made for myself
Disgrace is a genuine feeling within
Anyone here could be dead by then

After the terror that let loose
Deep inside my mind
It’s hard to choose
Whether to stay or die

It seems nonsensical
and unbelievable
it brings in disgust
and no kind of lust
For making things alright
I’m feeling messed up deep inside

My seemingly desperate eyes
Made way through my mind
Sat and thought for a lot of time
Went far beyond the line

After the terror that let loose
Deep inside my mind
It’s hard to choose
Whether to stay or die

It seems nonsensical
And unbelievable
It brings disgust
And no kind of lust
For making things alright
I’m feeling messed up deep inside

What a complete let down
to the very person I am
The hatred is locked up
inside of me and it is taking
over gradually
I feel I’m going to explode
and I will be nomore.

-aki