Dreams of Hounds, Claws

April 2006

behind the scenes
     part of the trade
     hardening myself against the mystery
     drawing away to save myself
this is what I claim, at least
truth be told, I gave it all away
to cheat myself and to seem normal
Now?  I want it back.
the power, the insight
I'll face the dire hounds
why should I fear my dreams
     when the real world is trying to kill me
     at least there I can directly shape
     here is harder, closer to concrete
     the rules are harder to break.
     There I make the rules.
I just have to understand the repercussions.
playing god has repercussions of such magnitude.
hounds, claws.
They belong to It.
Adversity, Adversary, It.
all sides, chaos, order, light, darkness, balance...
they have their enforcers.
You can make your own rules
but you will have to fight to protect them.
I was once known as a 'tweener'
someone with no allegiance
someone who pisses off everyone all at once
I had no identity, just my raw...
     ...urges
now I have will.
I will face the shades
     hounds of immense size
     tall as horses, all talons and teeth
     spurs jut out from their knees
     shoulders... hips... spines
     their saliva burns like acid
     when they breathe...
     (not that they need to...
     ...everyone likes their own drama)
     their breathe freezes the very air.
     hounds, claws.
     they drove me...
...out
I drove me out.
I let Its dogs scare me away.
'never turn your back on me,' whispers the darkness
I fled.
now I await reinsertion.
No more random and stray insights.
I want the full deal.
     The pain, hate, and fear
     the frightening dreams
No more turning from the darkness
If I was important enough to scare away...
(dreams of hounds, claws)
...then I had a purpose.
Someone got worried,
or I got in their way.
     cold unforgiving glare
Either way, It was pissed off enough
to send out Its servitors
     crown of blue fire, like lightning
It Is Time.
     hands wreathed in glowing power
It Is Time.
Unleash your hounds.
I will snap their necks
and devour their hearts.
Coldness is already here, but it is not all of me
darkness is in me, but it is not me.
I will face them, these

 

dreams of hounds, claws