Breath of Past-Present

Suffocating in my own tears

As Death salutes my father,

I see now those eyes of his in fear,

Grieving at the fact he couldn't be there for me & mom any longer,

My father and hero who used to help me chase my bullies away,

Who learnt me how to defend myself and be strong,

Yet alcohol and cigarettes were his best friends everyday,

Doctors assured that my dad will live, but they were wrong.

Guilt of being helpless started to be engraved in my soul,

I, so young and naive at 9, suddenly became mature and aware,

How life is cruel and I must not be once again fooled,

I learnt how Death can be unfair.

Few months later, I made up my mind,

''I will be Doctor, someday''

I too shall save lives and they will come back out fine, 

Little did I know the obstacles that are to come on my way...

Three years later came high school,

I was failing math and teacher told me to forget about my dream,

He said life got plenty options and asked me to take it cool,

Little did he know about me it would seem,

Graduated five years later and got a 96% average in math

I had lost three years of summer and weekends,

How my heart felt at eased as I bursted out in joyful laughs,

Proud of myself as I finally got to another end,

College hit and here I am,

I have now lost five years of summer,

Yet here I am,

Accepted in Health Science and nothing feels nicer,

Yes, I'm exhausted, and although Med School tells me I still have a long way to go,

Even if I haven't had the happiest childhood ever,

Never will I give up and I know,

No matter what anyone says I will not give in, never.

Author's Note

Sorry if there are any grammar or spelling mistakes. I am tired l.o.l. I was studying for biology and suddenly wanted to write. I rushed at the end seeing it is very late a.t.m. So despite that fact, I hope you guys liked it!