Dreamer

What I dreamed of then and what I dream of now.

When I was a little girl, I dreamed of growing up and living my own life. I dreamed of living on my own and making my own rules. I dreamed of my Prince Charming coming to sweep me of my feet and caring me away to some far away land to live happily ever after. I watched The Little Mermaid and dreamed of being a mermaid and living in that vast ocean where I wouldn't have a care in the world.

As a preteen, I dreamed of being the next big thing to hit the music scene and when Harry Potter came to the big screen, I dreamed of going to Hogwarts to be a witch because I thought that would be the coolest thing ever to be able to fly. When I lost the only man I've ever loved, I dreamed of him and he told me not to be sad anymore because he was finally happy after being sick for so long and on the days and nights that I missed him so much it was hard to breath, I dreamed of him being with me again.

As a teenager, I dreamed of much simpler things. I dreamed that I lived a life without Social Anxiety because I just wanted to be normal. I dreamed of graduating from High School so I could finally be rid of that place. Every now and then I would dream of the man I had lost not so long ago, only this time he was sitting in the audience while I walked across that stage to get my diploma and when I took that rolled up piece of paper and looked to see my family clapping, he wasn't there because after all, it was just a dream, but later that night, I dreamed of you again and he told me he was proud of me.

I still dream today, even though I'm in my 20's. I dream of being a great writer, not because I want all the fame and money that comes with it, but because I really do love it. I no longer dream of Prince Charming whisking me off my feet or being a mermaid to swim in the sea and I don't dream of being the next singing sensation...but I still dream of the man I lost twelve years ago.

No matter your age, keep dreaming and maybe one day, they'll come true just like mine have.

Roy L. Weddle

October 11, 1924 - June 4, 2001

You were and always will be my hero.