Someday

Here I am again

In this dark place again

I feel so sad 

Just thinking of you I can't believe what's gone on

But I also was warned

I just want to love

I want to love someone

And for them to love me too

Another four words to break my heart

Why did it have to be you?

What did I do?

To get this response from you

How could you break me again?

I gave you another chance because I'm in love with you

I know the world continues to spin on

But my heart can only take so much

As I write another chapter in my life

Do I really have to write about you?

I don't want an unkind image of you in my mind

I gave you a heart

That you just tossed aside

Maybe you didn't know you had 

J,

The closer I got 

The closer you pushed away 

As I stare at my reflection 

I wonder "What's wrong with me?"

Is it my fault?

Do I just have bad luck?

I wanted this to be meaningful

I loved your blue eyes

I loved your smile

When I saw you walking home

It killed me inside 

Because you turned and saw me

I heard those four words again in my mind

I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die

My book was only filled with good things about you

Now I take the pen and it's a like a dagger to my heart

The world goes on

I lost everything

My faith in you

Four words 

I can't believe this has happened to me again

Someday everything will be okay again

And I'll be able to breathe without you again

But now I feel pain to my sides. 

I look at the sky 

As blue as your eyes

But not as beautiful

Someday I'll be okay again

Author's Note

Another Poem about J. Sadly this isn't a "happy" poem like my other ones
My inspiration came from what happened to me today and the song
"Breathe" by Alex G

Reviews

[disheveledApathy]

Again? I'm so sorry ... for you to go through this once, but twice... :C But let me tell you, the problem is not with you, but with that schmuck. (I like that insult. If you get a chance to call him that....)
There is a song that starts, "Someday/When my life has passed me by/ I'll look around and I'll wonder why/ You were always there for me."
He will realize it. Someday. And then you'll haunt his dreams and nightmares...
Signing off,
Mer

[Aly]

thanks

[disheveledApathy]

Welcome. ;)

[InsanityWriter]

Beautiful peom. Too bad it's sad. :/ I'm sorry...

[Carolann Dowsett]

Oh Aly so much pain. Guys can be so cruel and heartless. You give them your heart and they just crush it. A great write, though I'm sorry that you have been hurt.

[Aly]

thank you sadly that's true

[beautiful dreamer]

wow what a great poem!

[Skye]

I could see this becoming a very beautiful song. Simply beautiful.

[Aly]

thank you!
I was kinda trying to write it like a song. Thank you so much!

[quinfinn]

seems this story has come full circle and there is regret and sadness abounding. this is a painful write, i have been here too many times myself. there is an old saying "once bitten, twice shy" which i believe applies here....of course, there is also "fool me once shame on you/fool me twice shame on me"...anyway, i think i get my point across, you are young and lovely and it is time to move on and find someone who will appreciate Aly without your gentle coaxing....nicely written, very engaging

[Aly]

thank you

[AYVID N]

It will happen and keep on happening till you decide to move on. Once you have identified Mr. Unavailable, no second chances...just run for life.

A heartfelt write!

[Aly]

He wasn't unavailable. but thank you for reading and reviewing.

[Lucy Morningstar &heart..]

nice job :)

[Aly]

thank you

[Michael Stevens]

It sounds like whatever happened, it's his loss.

[Aly]

Thank you :)