Scared

I'm basically torn and scared about liking someone else

I sometimes feel nervous around you

Sometimes I have the urge to touch you

To touch your arms

To touch your face

I know the urge is strange

Whenever you look at me

I stare into your eyes trying to memorize them 

I notice your long eyelashes

I think to myself I like you

But I am so hesitate  to fall for you

Something is holding me back.

I wish I could take a leap of faith

I know you are a good person

But I also wonder if I fall will I have to choose between you and someone else

Everyday I fall just a piece more

Also knowing that I am hopelessy confused on what I should do

I can't help but know that I am guarding but falling at the same.

Sometimes I wonder if faith is trying to delt it's hand but I am refusing 

Of course I am living in the memories

I come home and think about the day 

Like that one day where I turned and you were already looking and you raised your hand and waved

I waved back when I turned around I felt special inside.

Your the new name I speak on my lips

Sometimes I imagine us alone. 

Together in a quiet place.

You lean your head in and I lean in close and you let it linger..

As I am alone without the one I want most

I am often tempted

As Love is Everywhere I go ...

Everywhere I see it and feel so left out

But when I fall for someone

I am happy. 

I enjoy those moments

But soon they come to an end

With him I wonder

Is fate telling to let it be and let him enter in

Or can I continue to guard this sacred lonely heart

Author's Note

I'm torn between this guy I just met and another one.
I don't know what's going on with me but I am pretty uncertain and scared.

Reviews

[DoNt LoSe YoUrSeLf]

I love the honesty in this :) And it's always scary to us when we begin to like someone and also falling for them, but if you feel he's worth it, then I say take a chance and see what happens. Not everything will go as planned in life, but once you fall in love, everything seems just right. No matter who it is, if you fall, you fall hard for them...

[Aly]

Thanks for reading and reviewing

[DoNt LoSe YoUrSeLf]

You're welcome :) It was really great.

[jennilouhoo]

Lovely! This was SO relateable, I'm feeling that same way right now, except I'm not in a dilemma. It's just one guy, and interesting enough, that's what I got from this poem. I felt like you were just focusing on one guy in the poem. Perhaps you have stronger feelings for him? Anyways, I loved it. I love reading anything that pertains to way I'm feeling at a certain time. Bravo!

[Aly]

Awesome! Thank you.
I was indeed focusing on one guy because he is the one the poem was most about the one I was most worried about falling for as you can see. But thank you :) Glad you liked it.

[s y e]

Uh oh! DILEMMA!!!
I'm sure a lot of us can relate to this at some point or another.
Follow your heart....

[Aly]

Def Dilemma...
I deal with this on like all the time.

[s y e]

Wow.
Im sure you'll get through it!

[Aly]

Thanks

[The Invisible Girl]

I hope everything turns out good in the end. Great poem!

[Aly]

Thank you. Glad you liked it. Thanks for reviewing and reading

[The Invisible Girl]

Yep! No problem! I love reviewing other people's work! :)

[Aly]

:)

[quinfinn]

dilemma.....which one? why, the patient and considerate one...of course. i love this write, i know this feeling....i think many of us do. lessons have taught me that the easiest path is usually the less rewarding .

[Aly]

Dilemma indeed it is. Well the guy in the poem the one I state "I want" is away right now and won't be home til sometime next year. So I am torn because if I fell for this guy I would either get to attached and he would move on, and I'd be left heartbroken, or this guy and I would have something and well it would still be a hard choice to decide whether or not I want to be with him. Thanks for reviewing and writing.

[quinfinn]

love outweighs all other considerations.....you are so welcome