Dear Blue Eyes

Poems I wrote about this guy

January 24^th,2012

I told myself  ‘you’ll get hurt’

Now it’s happened.

Today he broke a small part of me.

In the back of my mind, I found I always knew.

I knew he wouldn’t be good enough for me.

I knew I would cry

I knew he would reject the note

I knew.

Now I lay in bed, crying.

Fearing to fall asleep.

Because I don’t want to see your face in my dreams.

I’m ready to tear my heart out.

To go on living without one.

Never guarding or pretending

I try to tell myself I’ll be okay.

I know someone will heal me.

He’ll pull me together piece by piece.

He was the one I truly loved

He never once broke me

His smile makes me whole again.

 

 

 

 

January 24^th,2012

My heart is full

My heart has packed

But yet I found myself looking back,

At your face, that once made me happy,

No words were ever said, or done.

Now I no longer stare at your eyes.

As I leave I am hoping to breathe again.

I never opened up to you

But I did fall for you.

Last night

I hung my head and cried

As my heart broke

We never got close

But you had a piece of me

Now I’m searching for something else

Oh, it hurts to look at you.

I only ever wanted you.

You once made my heart race

Now it races for someone else.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

January 24^th,2012

Am I wrong

Am I confused

Did I make it all up

Did I make up your smiles

The way you looked at me

Did I misunderstood those blue eyes

If I did, then I guess it all means nothing.

It all meant nothing

All those days, all those hours, they mean nothing

January 24^th,2012

My restless heart

Cant live much longer

My heart longs for your heart

My heart beats slowly

But speds up when you’re around

The gears in my head won’t stop turning

I can’t get you off my mind.

I’ll stand by you

I want to be faithfully yours forever

 

 

 

 

 

February 7^th,2012

It’s always sad to say goodbye to someone you care about

I will say, I was a fool for you.

I really liked you.

I knew you liked me.

I’ll miss you.

I knew it would end bad

But I fell anway

Fell for you.

I’ll miss your eyes and how they looked at me

I’ll miss those blue eyes.

February 8^th,2012

Can I ask you a question please

Promise you won’t judge me

How could you give up on me?

I don’t know how it got this way.

A month ago you liked me.

Now you don’t.

Some days I feel betrayed, other days I’m angry.

Some days, I’m crying.

Now I look at you and wonder if I’ll ever have a chance again.

 

 

 

 

February 8^th,2012

There are a hundred words I could say

But would they really have any effect?

Right now blue eyes I feel sorrow

You’ve lost a piece of my heart.

I stare. . .wishing.

Wishing something will happen.

Wishing you will say something.

Wishing my heart won’t break.

But how can a heart break

When it was never whole

I wish you didn’t have so much ice in your soul.

But then again maybe I don’t know you at all.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

February 8^th,2012

Here I am again tonight

Starring blankly at what surronds me.

My mind way deep in thought

You cross my mind a hundred times a day.

Once in awhile I’ll dream of you.

I’m spending forever wondering of what could’ve been

This question is a burning image in my mind.

Do you like me too?

It’s a burning thought.

All I’ll say is I’m in love with you.

 

February 9^th,2012

People walk in and out of life.

Tell me, will we walk out of each others?

I have one foot out, and one foot in.

I don’t know whether you’re in or not.

I believe you’re in, but there’s another part that says you’re already out.

Tell me, you’ll stop playing with my heart.

Tell me to stop hanging on, before you smash my heart

 

 

 

 

 

February 9^th, 2012

Has the spark inside died?

Is it only me waiting

Is it too late

Oh Blue Eyes how will I ever know?

Will we just keep pretending?

Even though I’m slowly dying on the inside.

I wish an opprunity would come so I can change your mind.

Maybe I should give in, and move on.

Instead of waiting for an answer.

I wanted words, now all I have is nothing.

 

 

 

 

 

February 9^th, 2012

I’m not sure, why I’m always scared around you Blue Eyes.

Deep down inside I knew it wasn’t right.

But I wanted you more than anything

I knew I walking into enemy territory.

But I wanted to prove myself that nothing was wrong.

That the little voice in my head was wrong about you.

To prove that you are right for me.

I wanted you Blue Eyes.

 

February 10^th,2012

Dear Blue Eyes,

I know the right thing to do is to be friends.

But how do we be friends, when my heart hurts

Maybe if you were out of mind, I would be in better shape

Instead of a lost soul searching in the dark for light

I haven’t slept in months, you’re the only thing I’ll see.

Your face the burning image in my mind.

Sadly, I’m still true to you.

Of all the boys in the world I am choosing you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

May 29^th,2012

Blue Eyes,

Until our next hello I refuse to say goodbye

Don’t you miss me alittle

I wonder if you ever think of me

I hope you know I really care about you

I hope you know I miss you

This path,

I am walking alone.

I wish I’d move on.

Every day is a struggle

Maybe you never cared

But I don’t believe it

Maybe I was hurting you

But I never meant too.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

June 9^th,2012

Sometimes when I look at you

I die a little more inside.

Maybe I’ll never find someone like you.

But that’s okay.

I wouldn’t want to be left twice.

Someday my life will begin.

Maybe after High School.

Or maybe when I finally leave

I know it’s the right thing to do

But my heart can’t go on

Sometimes my dreams will take me back to sadness.

My memories always get in the way of moving on.

As I hold on

It kills me more inside

I wonder what made you leave.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

June 9^th,2012

The fire within has died

The candle no longer burns

I wish he hadn’t meant so much

Inside my heart breaks.

Bleeds.

Slowly I’ll stitch the wound up.

I’ll be brand new.

I won’t be able to ever look at you the same

Always remembering I once had feelings for you.

Even after you move on.

I can’t let go.

 

June 10^th,2012

Please know I was smitten from the start.

I believe this was something good.

Life never turns out the way you plan.

Love reminds me why I never give up

My dreams have started to change

I’ve been sleeping but now I’m awake

Why wake from a good dream

I fell so hard I should have been a star

 

 

 

June 10^th,2012

Life is like the ocean

Sometimes you survive

Sometimes you drown

I find myself sailing along

Then dropped into the cold water

Struggling for air

Seeing my boat

Safe and sound

But I let myself drown in the loniless

I reach for the boat

Only to be surrounded by sharks

Can I bring myself to cross the depths

I brace myself

But I cross the boat

Finding nothing can hurt me

That  I am strong

Sometimes I see you face

Like fog

But then it becomes a distant part of my memory

 

 

 

 

 

June,2012

I must kiss every day goodbye

You filled my life with sweetness and sorrow

I don’t regret what I did for love

Maybe we always knew

I won’t let myself forget

Forget those five amazing months

As I travel away

Love is what I remember

I find myself looking back

Pleading for time to take me back to September.

As my hand waves goodbye

My heart cries with sorrow

But I know I’ll move on

I’ll fall in love again

Even if it’s not with you

I won’t allow myself to forget and regret

What I did for love.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

August 18^th,2012

Dear Blue Eyes

What I want more than anything to get back with you

I dreamt about you

It was a lovely dream

But here I find out another girl likes you

I know I have no chance

That’s what saddens me

I wish I could have you back

But I think you may have eyes for someone else

Blue Eyes,

Take me back

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

August 18^th,2012

Every little you do

Makes me want more of you

Seeing you face

I can never stop staring

I love your smile

The way it’s crooked

Your voice

Keeps reelin’ me in. .  .

Everything you do

Makes me want more of you

Every time I think I’m moving on

Something makes me come back to you

Every time I see you

My breathing gets tight

Now I don’t know what to do

I’m not very good at forgetting and moving on to someone else

But I’ve never met someone quite like you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

September 3^rd, 2012

Some days I can’t help but think of you.

Some days I close my eyes just to relieve those moments in the memories for a few seconds.

Whenever I close them, I’m back in that memory.

I see your face cleary

I see your clothes

I see everything

Because I don’t want to forget

The same thing comes to mind

“There’s more to you than meets the eye,”

So why Blue Eyes must you hide?

Why are you wearing a mask

What happened to you to make you guard your heart?

Am I the one who is suppose to help break your wall?

Will anything I say get you to open

Will you ever hold me

I’ve wanted a lot of things, but nothing as this much.

I feel like I should say goodbye

Ever since the other guy

I have felt this is a second chance to do things right

Right things I should have done years ago but never could

Don’t ever believe I never cared about you

Just like I believe that deep down inside you care about me

I am here

Trying to see where my life should be

Your not my friend but you aren’t my enemy either.

You are you.

I feel like I should walk away and try to live a Happily Ever After

But I do know that for some reason I should stay with you

Isn’t interesting, how I can’t stay away.

In another life these other guys I met, some could have been the one.

Maybe you are my one.

Don’t bad things usually happen before things get better?

I know I should make the first move

Right now I feel like if I had it my way I could forget about you and go live this other life

And yet here it is I stand in a dark light

Long ago I said

If you wanna leave then just go

But now I stand

At crossroads, wondering which path to take

If I wasn’t me then when you no longer fought for me, I would have walked away from you for the rest of my life.

But yet I still

Because I am too faithful

Only Heaven knows what will happen.

Where I will be in a few.

If I will fall in love with you.

If we’re ever together

I know we’re suppose to be

I just don’t know if it’s suppose to be forever.

 

September 4th,2012

I change my mind a lot

So I am doing it right now

I do know however that right now I’ve decided and maybe it’s just for now

But I do know that I’ve decided to just let you go

Blue Eyes, if you think of me

I hope its good thoughts

Don’t forget that I really cared about you

Don’t forget those wonderful memories we once had.

I know I can’t forget your Blue Eyes

Will you forget mine?

Don’t forget me today

Oh Blue Eyes,

I know that once in awhile you’ll think of me

Time will tell where we’re suppose to be.

Just don’t forget about me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

October 21, 2012

Before you shook my hand you were smiling sweetly at me

Even while I stared blankly at you

You smiled

So confident

So genuine

So kind

So close

I’ve never been this close to you until now

You held out your hand

I slowly took it

I didn’t want to be so polite

I only wanted to see your face

You smiled

I stared into those beautiful blue eyes

You smiled big

A real smile

 nothing fake

nothing small

the real deal

I liked shaking your hand

I liked how you looked at me

You stared at me as if I was a real person

I know I probably won’t ever have another moment like this

So I’ll try not to forget

November 1^st,2012

Did you see me?

Did you think of me as you sung?

Did the songs you sang remind you of me?

I silently prayed to see your eyes on mine

I focused on you

Sometimes I had to blink because it hurt to be so closely focused on you…

Reviews

[Love Well Spent]

Wow. This is really great...I love it when you wrote: "I’m ready to tear my heart out.
To go on living without one."

And also, "I must kiss every day goodbye. You filled my life with sweetness and sorrow."

I could really relate to that. Nicely done. Thanks for sharing!

[Aly]

That's my favorite part too "I'm ready to tear my heart out. To go on living without one" I think I did a brillant job. Thank you for reading and reviewing :)

[Aly]

Check out "10/21/12 Dear Blue Eyes"

[Phillitup]

An epic story through several months and thoughts. I am sorry that I hardly review your screenplays but I do better reviewing poetry. Let me just say, you write a lot in one poem. This is full of poetry, imagery, emotion, everything. I love it.

[Aly]

Thank you! Oh it's fine now I know that you like to review poems. Well these are several poems actually I just dated them and I put them all in one because I copied and pasted this from my laptop. But thank you.

[Phillitup]

Of course! Very interesting...

[quinfinn]

such pain, self doubt, depth and raw emotion are lain bare herein...this reads like journal entries, which keeps the reader to a refreshed view of the mania day by day by week...oh yes, i call it mania, because these feelings are pure manic...but so, so honest and real. this is exquisite, in a very painful and intense sort of way and i am loathe to come up with any set prognosis for this write, other than a rewarding and fulfilling love. awesome writing!!!! your wording is absolutely unique and beautiful..

[Aly]

Thank you. I did feel a bit obsessive over him, but I guess I was. Thankfully I have moved on, but yes I was in a lot of pain. Thank you for reviewing. Means a lot.

[quinfinn]

welcome!

[michael.c.m]

wow. I shy away at writing about relationships, but this is simply stunning. Nay, complex and rich and stunning.

[Aly]

Thank you. For some reason with this particular guy it was the only way I could deal with everything. Thank you.

[michael.c.m]

freeform journaling is a form of self-acknowledgement, self-therapy, if you will. Hope to read more from you. Best wishes for the new year. -michael

[Aly]

Thank you feel free to read my other poems, and my TV show that I am currently writing called "The Dilemma" (temporaily name) best luck for the new year!

[teardrop]

such an emotional write, deep write.

[Aly]

Thank you. Yes it definetely was.

[Eagle Cruagh]

It has been nearly a year that I have held your hand
'You cried as I held you, but that`s all right .
It has been nearly a year and every night you pray
that he will return, but that`s all right.
You clung to me in the night, worrying about him,
but that`s all right as I hold you close.
Our lips meet in the dark, but that`s all right.
We have nice talks and you write , but tha`s all right
Sometimes when we make love you call his name,
but that`s all right.
It`s been almost a year and I hold your hand and
you forget my name, but I hold you in the night, but
that`s all right----- Guess he did`nt know that you are
appreciated now--he is just a name, but that`s all right.
-----Eagle Cruagh

[Aly]

?

[Eagle Cruagh]

I see you need an explanation. I thought it would be nice if "OLD BLUE EYES" saw what he is missing.
---- Eagle Cruagh

[Aly]

ohh...um..ok.

[Aly]

thanks for reading...

[disheveledApathy]

Completely expresses all of the pains and joys of love from afar. Good luck with your blue eyes, beautiful piece of writing!

[Aly]

Thank you. Oh me and Blue Eyes are over. But hey the guy came me ALOT to write about

[disheveledApathy]

I can see that :) good material, though. Love the line, "I fell so hard I should have been a star. ."

[Aly]

aw thank you I admit it's from "Falling Star" by Jet

[disheveledApathy]

Ooh need to look that up I love that line!

[Aly]

I changed it alittle orginally in the song it's "You fell so hard you should have been the star" but the song is Falling Star by Jet. I recommend it :) and their song Hold On :)

[disheveledApathy]

Will look up, thanks! :D

[Aly]

Welcome!